LGBT
Related: About this forumI ran into my high school crush
in the grocery store. She's beautiful, and she told me I looked 17 (which, I have taken great care of myself).
She seemed so forlorn, though. She told me she has seen me everywhere and never got the nerve to talk to me. She never got the nerve to talk to ME!?
I at least sent her my phone number to her phone, and called and left a message.
My god, how could she not notice how beautiful and accomplished she is?
burrowowl
(17,638 posts)Aerows
(39,961 posts)to talk to me when she has seen me all around town. I just can't believe it.
I was SO in love with her in high school.
She is a lesbian dreamboat. Now and then.
Warpy
(111,245 posts)always go through life feeling some level of worthlessness.
It's why bullying has to be taken seriously by schools and stopped by responsible adults.
Maybe things will work out and she'll start to see herself through your eyes.
Aerows
(39,961 posts)always has been and you would have to be deaf to not appreciate her voice!
She did seem shy when we met in the grocery store, but damn, the woman is beautiful. Always has been. Maybe different eyes might see something else, but mine have always seen her as a fantastic wonderful person and woman.
Cooperstown
(49 posts)I'm over 50, and I know 3 of them who are dead now. All guys. One in wartime, two from AIDS.
Not to be too "down" on this, three of my college buddies are happily married now in some states where it's legal.
Make the most of your life. Enjoy just sharing a coffee or a lunch or something with that long lost friend.
Don't expect the world, enjoy the moments.
I hope you find lots of hapiness. Just a message from another DU member who appreciates the little moments of wonder and surprise in our lives.
Aerows
(39,961 posts)This was a bit of wonder and surprise.
Aerows
(39,961 posts)which is coming up. Maybe I can do something stupid like call her up and sing happy birthday to her if she doesn't respond to my voice message.
She has the clearest, most beautiful brown eyes. Now that I think about it, she was kind of picked on.
She was just so wonderful I never imagined anyone would want to do her harm.
Aerows
(39,961 posts)but I still have a flower she gave me pressed in an encyclopedia. I just found it.
Cooperstown
(49 posts)She gave you a flower, you preserved it.
There is friendship there, an ember almost dead from years gone by, but still alive, like a coal in a fireplace.
With that simple ember, you could have an horrific housefilre or simple bonfire or cookout or fireplace moment here, or maybe just an eveninng of warmth. Or maybe just a swim in a pool this summer, and lunch together, forget the coals in the fireplace, let them go out, a swim together in a warm pool, or a cold uncooked lunch together would find you both very happy to reunite.
I met up with someone 35 years since we last met, he is happily married, we just had a nice lunch and a cookout the next week where I was his long lost friend, now meeting his very wonderful current day friends, all very nice people, oh, and I met his husband, too.
A very fine day, just as it was. I don't ask any more, meet them again, try to connect, enjoy it.
Edited to add: Value what came before, and the invitation and opportunity to reconnect, a very special moment for both of you in your lives. Don't ask for more, people do move on, and what was once can hardly hardly almost never be again.
Fearless
(18,421 posts)I hope it works out. Both of mine are now married, so I don't see that happening! But hey, one can daydream now and then.
closeupready
(29,503 posts)All of them were platonic relationships as I didn't consummate my homosexuality until college, but most are not looking all that good anymore.
Surprisingly though, one of them is quite friendly with me even though I don't think I ever had a single conversation with him in the six years I went to school with him (we had a fairly large high school of 1600 students). I sense somehow some unspoken lust was there. It's bittersweet because I look at pictures of him from back then and yep, he was in fact super hot.
Life is weird. You wish you could go back and get naked with them - or at least I do - but you can't. Oh well, as long as they are happy today and healthy, I'm grateful for that.
Aerows
(39,961 posts)I do wish I could go back and get naked with her, but it wasn't in the cards and probably isn't now. But it is really neat to see people you haven't seen in years that you admired and there they are .
She looks happy and healthy and that is enough for me .