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On November 3, minutes after Kerry's concession speech, I called my old temp agency and requested a second job. Within an hour, I had a second job and I started Nov 4. This decision has kept me very busy, which is good because without the distraction I am sure I would have gone insane.
I saving all the money from my second job. I am saving it in a bank, but I am considering keeping it in a foreign locale. I don't have enough money to switch to gold, or I would. My plan is to save money and if things continue to get worse, which they seem like they must, I will leave in a year or so for a more "primitive" country, if it is still possible to leave. I think a Depression is increasingly likely.
Like the rest of you, I did everything I could to support JK and to denounce Bush. I was completely, totally unprepared for the election "results." It was the worst shock of my life. I never thought the American people were this bad, but it seems the effects of rampant evangelical fundamentalism, of non-stop media propaganda, of an out-of-control consumer culture, of battered public schools, and of racism, have been successful in reducing a majority of Americans into Nazis.
While my trust in politicians has never been strong, it is even harder now to trust ANY politician. The whole political process seems like a game to me or, at best, the Democratic party has no clue how to fight fascism. This doesn't mean I am leaving the party or criticizing the JK campaign. Some of the best people I've ever met worked for the JK campaign and even if the game is fixed, they were fighting for real and with everything they had.
The worst thing to me remains the Occupation of Iraq, the murdering of our troops by our government, the looting of Iraq, the buildup of military bases, and all the other horrors we are inflicting on these people who did nothing to us. I have never accepted this horrible, monstrous Invasion/Occupation and I never will. I will never be a Nazi, I will never be a Crusader, I will never love Big Brother, and I will never acknowledge this government as legitimate.
I am not spending money on non-essential shopping, but I haven't done that in years. I don't watch TV or listen to corporate radio, but I haven't done that in years. I really don't know what else I can do.
So this is where I stand. Stunned, furious, terrified, and hopeless. I am finding people like Alex Jones more and more believable. I am encouraging my Muslim friends to leave the country and the other students to consider studying abroad. My worst fear is another 9/11 MIHOP and a subsequent draft.
I wish I could offer something more encouraging, but it would be dishonest. I know some will feel I am quitting, but I feel I am simply preparing myself for the inevitable, always-worsening, catastrophes to come. My sad, heartbreaking slogan for America is now: Soviets at home, Nazis abroad. I hope against hope I am wrong and if I can do anything to stop this, I will.
I will always be politically active and I still love DU with all my heart. I have been posting less, but I still lurk and find comfort in my friends here and their brilliance.
Keep your eyes open, everybody, and be honest to yourself about what you see. Please don't get caught flat footed and no matter how you react to this tragedy, I wish you all the best of luck.
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