I am crying right now. [View All]

The time is one in the morning. I can barely see through the tears. On October 31, 1999, I met my future wife. I was at a popular cincinnati eatery with a few buds, and this tall, brunette was my waitress. I was hitting on her, very mildly. A few months later, I got the balls to ask her out. We had a semi-decent date. A month or two later, I asked if she wanted to be my girlfriend. She was raped two days later. I couldn't deal with it, and dumped her. She, in a state of extreme depression, started dating an abuser. We saw each other at a lunch spot. She asked me to dinner. I said yes. She dumped the abuser. We started seeing each other. She called me. She was pregnant. The child was the abuser's. I was devastated. I dumped her. I hated myself and sought refuge in the bottle. She called me. She was now 7 months along. I went to see her. We went to dinner. I asked for a kiss before she went into her home. Some time passed. I was in torment. She had the baby. I asked her to marry me. I adopted the child. I married her. Tonight, I am having flashbacks to everything that happened. I couldn't be happier, but I can't stop crying. I have a daughter who adores me. I have a wife who I can't live without. None of this would have happened had my wife and I not fucked up our lives. A man and musician named Keith Kane of Vertical Horizon has been with me the entire time. His music, particularly the song, "Japan" has helped me. Without Keith and the fucked up shit, I would never have been as happy as I am now. I cry because I love. I love a little girl who is not mine, but who is mine . She calls me "Daddy" and sings little songs about me. I call her "Sweetheart" and can't imagine a life without her and her Mommy. My life is now complete. I have my world and know my place. My tears keep falling, even though my wife and my baby are in bed. I can't stop. I'm so happy that I can't stop crying. Sure, it was Sting or Toby Keith who said it, but it applies. I love them, and I can't stop crying.