Home alone and sad [View All]

My husband and my best friend (male) are hanging out together today. I cannot go. His wife has become jealous of me and hates me. To make a long story short, it was triggered when I wrote him a nice letter but her jealousy had evidently been building for some time. His wife and I have known each other for about six months and I thought that we were becoming friends. I tried to write a nice letter to her saying that there wasn't anything to worry about and how much I thought of her. That made things worse and I thought that I almost lost my best friend over it since he was upset that I went behind his back to do it and with how badly it turned out. This happened a month ago. My friend started a new job two weeks ago (we had worked together). We have seen each other a couple times since then but I feel that I cannot talk to him about it although I think that things are a bit better between them as she is happy about his new higher paying job (They've been having trouble paying their bills). It hurts me so much though. I told my husband that I wanted him to go. My friend and he have become friends. There is no reason that they shouldn't hang out (they have an errand too which is why they are over there). I suppose that I am jealous too. He can hang out there, but I can't. I don't know if there is hope for this. I am even having a hard pin pointing my feelings. I am not sorry for being his friend. I am not sorry for getting to know her either (I truly like her). I am sorry that we all got hurt. I feel guilty about something though and feel that I should do something, but that just made things worse earlier. I cannot make someone like me that doesn't. So I'll just sit here and be hurt.