Reply #2: that's easy [View All]

"self loathing" has nothing to do with what he did.

He views "other people" as gay, and himself as troubled by demons or temptation or whatever. That's why he doesn't see any hypocrisy in his actions, just a human failing in the face of temptation.

That's not self-loathing - that's just hypocrisy. We just assume he feels the same revulsion about himself as we feel about him for his hypocrisy, which isn't necessarily what's going through his mind.

If you try to connect that he's a closet gay and he hates gays and therefore hates himself, that doesn't really work either. By definition, someone who is closeted does not view "gayness" as an internalized component of their identity - he couldn't be "self loathing".