Reply #44: Oh I am glad that I am not the only one [View All]

who experiences these gigantic boots in the ass. :rofl:

I seem to ruminate for a LOOOOOOOOONG time, before the universe decides, OK, you've had enough -- out! done! over! I am sure I have decided too in my heart, and most of the time I act on it, but damn, as I get older, it is tough. I just left a 17 year relationship this year, and granted, I have journals from 10 years ago that indicate my unhappiness and feeling unfulfilled with STBX, so now I am in a phase trying to figure out why the fuck I stayed so long? My old bugaboo no doubt --> intense need for security. I know I need to get a handle on this, because it has really pushed me into some not so great corners. So, I've really gotten immersed in astrology again, it's helped to revisit my chart and see the challenging aspects to try to make sense of this bizarre year. I've been liberated in ways that I could only dream of...

I've had some great things happen this year too, a new job and a new relationship. I guess the universe decided it was about time for that also. :hi: All I can say, is wow, it's been powerful and deep.