I think it is equally unbelievable that the universe exists with or without a god. [View All]

My first post in this group...

I have never been a very religious person, but for most of my life, I at least accepted that there was a creator... but as time goes by my beliefs have frayed more and more. Now I find I don't much believe in anything, but I find it just as hard to believe that the universe (and those of us in it) came into existence with no divine direction, as it is to believe that there is some grand creator who crafted or at least began it all.

It was easy to have a crutch when I had religion... things I didn't understand, I could just chalk up to "God." But now that I have no solid belief, I feel pretty much perplexed. Do you have any favorite books, authors, websites, etc to direct me to, concerning trying to understand existence without religion, for the newbies in this arena? Or do you just not wonder about it? I wonder constantly about existence, the universe, why and how it exists... I didn't really wonder that much when I believed in god. Now I do.

I was surfing Amazon today, but didn't find any titles that seemed to be what I was looking for. I thought maybe some fellow DUer might relate to what I am feeling.