I know this isn't really a feminist issue, but... [View All]

I really need somewhere to vent and the Lounge is not an option on this one. I had a fight with one of my best friends on DU and he goes in the Lounge and I don't want to make it worse by venting in public. I'm pretty damn sure he won't be coming in here.

I'm coming unglued. I just lost Andy. My guy best friend is about to start chemo for colon cancer. And I think I'm probably losing a good friend who has been a rock for me over the last year.

I'm stressed out and freaked out and did something really stupid...I told him the truth and we had a blowup and now he's all freaked out and I'm probably going to lose somone I really care about and I can't figure out how to fix things and mostly I just want to cry.

I can't stop shaking. After several days of silence the pm I just got was painful. I don't have the energy for the drama right now. I don't feel like defending myself and I don't feel like getting yelled at and I don't feel like I should be the one walking on eggshells. I want just once for the other person to make the effort to fix things instead of me having to do it all the damn time.

I want to yell at him. I want to take all this anger I have at the universe and just open up full bore. I want him to get over it and maybe see how much I hurt right now and understand that it's making me do dumb things sometimes and to cut me some fucking slack.

I want my momma.