This afternoon I discovered that the love of my life died two years ago. [View All]

I apologize for posting this here, but I have no one else to share this with, at least at the moment. For a few years I have been trying to find some way to contact someone I loved a long time ago. I would Google her name but never find anything, so I eventually gave up trying. (We had been friends in high school, and college, and after that, and one of my sisters had been her best friend in high school. We all grew up in the same town.) We eventually fell in love during a very difficult time for both of us. It ended, not so well.

Last night I finally found her online, and a way to contact her too. I wrote her a message and I was so happy.

Today I found her facebook page, and all of the messages were memorial messages: Saying how much they miss her, and one gave the place and time for her memorial service. They were dated January 2007. And since then, some of her friends marked her birthday.

I'm inconsolable. Hysterical beyond words.

I just had to say something about this. I just joined Facebook and have contacted her most recent friends to try to find out what happened. I searched Google high and low for the past few hours but I can't find anything about her, or an obituary or anything.

I can't express my sorrow.

I'll try to call my sister tomorrow and tell her. But I'm just too shaken and devastated to talk to anyone.