Reply #23: I'm listening [View All]

and you affect my level of awareness and thought.
Lives are salvageable. 25 years continuous sobriety.

I couldn't stop crying today, and it took me by surprise. This from a guy who raced motorcycles, broke bones, and picked it up to ride off -every time. Today I just felt I'd let my child down. From marching on the streets to donating money while jobless, I've tried so hard to leave a better world - But I've failed to make a difference for my child.

I'm reduced to the role of gadfly, pushing and prodding. Homelife is serene and happy, and I'm very grateful -but the lack of a party that comes close to representing me has me utterly frustrated. The pyrrhic victory of Obama's win has deflated me. To look at the mess our kids face... I get furious at times.

I guess I let John Lennon get to me today when this tune popped up:

Close your eyes,
Have no fear,
The monsters gone,
He's on the run and your daddy's here,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Before you go to sleep,
Say a little prayer,
Every day in every way,
It's getting better and better,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,

Out on the ocean sailing away,
I can hardly wait,
To see you to come of age,
But I guess we'll both,
Just have to be patient,
Yes it's a long way to go,
But in the meantime,

Before you cross the street,
Take my hand,
Life is just what happens to you,
While your busy making other plans,

Beautiful,
Beautiful, beautiful,
Beautiful Boy,
Darling,
Darling,
Darling Boy.