So here I am... a fourty-something man..

.. bawling like a school girl. Much like I did this time 4 years ago.

Never have I felt so good about something.. all the signs were there. The Sox win the series, the Pats are breaking records. The Redskins even lose their last game before the election. Yes, change was in the air! I awoke today to go cast my vote at the crack of dawn with three hundred other people at my polling place. And for a moment there, I thought everyone was like me. Ready for a long anticipated change. Even the dude behind me was gratuitously saying into his cell phone "they're not going to steal my vote this time".

I left the polls thinking Kerry was going to kick serious ass. I couldn't concentrate at work and read the news all day, reading about record turnouts and just couldn't wait to get home and watch the results on all my favorite news outlets.

Well, the night turned out to be not as magical as I thought it would be. The same states retained the color they had four years ago and my guy was behind like, 2 million votes in the popularity contest. I sat at my computer hitting refresh over and over from the DU index page looking for a shred of hope that my imaginary landslide was going to occur and that the numbers would change for the better in the blue column, but they never did. My presidential choice was losing.

One A.M. came around and I decided I just couldn't take it any more. I finished my last beer, had my last smoke of the day, and asked God one more time for a miracle.

Maybe if I go to sleep, I will wake up the next day to find that 537 votes were discovered in FL and that's all Kerry needed to win the state, right?

For some reason, I just can't get the mantra "four more years" out of my head.

Guess I have to prepare myself for another depressing four years of reading forums and newsgroups about how they're not going to steal it again in '08, and watching the smug faces of Hannity and O'Reilly and all whoring it up for the never-elected president. Just can't wait. :)

Could this be the year I hang this crap up all together? Maybe.



Catch ya tomorrow DU!

four years and a week ago, i never thought "politics" would make me cry, now it does on a regular basis.

this was theft, and they'll get away with it. dammit.

people ask how i can think of leaving america? how can i stay? what will it take to make the majority see what the minority does?

i think i'm gonna listen to osama, i might check out Sweden. i'd rather be an illegal immigrant of some country to be proud of than a legal resident of a facist state.