What a shitty day

My co-worker friend had a MS attack and had to go to hospital

Boss said that the transition to thin clients has begun so I'll be out of work soon (have fun, economy) - yeah, I know there are some people on DU who've said comments about what a waste it is for people to have to have PC support specialists (who do a lot fucking more than piddle about to get a PC up; we also help the users do what they don't know what to do, amongst other things), and to them I can only say that I hope I'm around when they cry saying their job is going to be for the chop because I'll tell them their industry is a waste too. :eyes: x(

Still can't think logically; there's no point in me furthering my career if I can't figure out the new concepts

Another co-worker mentioned that he's seen me lose my balance and other problems; thinks that I have a neurological disorder with stress exacerbating it. (in that order, all of the professional jerkwads I go to want to say it's all anxiety. I've had balance problems for over a fucking decade, and other problems long before. It's not fucking stress that causes it. It's stress that makes me feel infinitely worse! x( )

No response from the two guys who answered my personal ad. They seemed cool too. I probably came across as 'needy' or something. I dunno anymore. We're all needy and I'm tired of a society that's status and image driven. WTF happened to PEOPLE?

Lost my sunglasses too.

The future is never predictable, but I feel like crap anyway.

sometimes balance problems are related to inner ear issues, not necessarily neurological.

I won't get hearing aids. Overly expensive, insurance won't cover, and the buggers use up more batteries than Britney Spears.

With the spasm and tremor problems, which people've also noticed, it's far more than just an inner ear issue. :-(

Still, at least it's been hammered into my head that I'm not immortal. :-) You 20-somethin' youngin's' out there bear that in mind.

:eyes: I love that one.

I have balance problems, some occasional random limb weakness, dizziness, ear ringing, and a tendency to miss little sounds in what people say. This can be pretty funny sometimes - what I hear is often far more entertaining than what people actually say :crazy: Not so funny is the occasional falling down, staggering, or Alice in Wonderland hallucinations of growing taller or smaller. I often carry a cane, not to hold myself up so much as to provide an extra bit of sensory information for balance and also so that people who see me listing to one side, dragging a foot, or reeling will think "oh, she must have some disability" not "oh, look, that woman's falling down drunk at noon".

The answer I got, after spending so much time with doctors that I almost lost my job for it, was "I dunno, take some time off and relax." Gee, thanks, right?

HypnoToad, hon, if you ever want a person to rant with/at, message me or mail me or whatever you like. It sucks to have those kinds of symptoms with no better explanation than "stress", and that you have a friend and coworker with MS would probably push your own worry button about neurological signs. (It would push mine!) It sucks even more that you have to actually be under such stress. If you admit to it, some doctors won't help you as much, because they'll assume that the stress is the cause. If you don't admit to it, it will make you sick in some other way, even if only in your mind and in your heart. And like some perverse closing of a circle, the symptoms without a diagnosis, treatment plan, or even idea of how they will change in the future themselves cause stress. Having needs also doesn't make you needy :-) It just makes you alive.

PS That "moving to thin client, we won't need PC support techs" is hooey on top of more hooey.

I haven't any hallucinations, but the dizzyness I sometimes get gives me that impression.

Also, thank you MUCH for offering to be a listening ear! :hug:

The good news is that they claim they will keep some PCs for those who need the power, but my boss did sound depressed this morning when maing the statement. It might be a lot of hooey in the end. It's too early to tell and I still have possibilities and I won't let it eat at me. There's an infinite amount of possibilities that could happen in this world anyway.

There's always going to be a need for PC support, especially good support people who care as much about the users as about the hardware and software. The hands on stuff also can't ever be outsourced - you can't have the guy in Bangalore come in to reseat the card in the machine under the desk of the sales rep in Detroit :-)

Hang in there!

I'm sorry, guy. I know that doesn't help. I hate it when people I like and care about go through crap like this.

You're here, among friends.

And I don't understand those two guys who answered your ad. That kind of bullshit is inexcusible.

T

I'm tired of feeling negative anyway. :D

:hug:

And you're perfectly correct about support people being under appreciated. I love to watch organizations writhe in confusion and agony when they let the support folks go.

Whatever the future holds will happen.

I do have some time, so I'm going to weigh the pros and cons and live accordingly.

I have had a shitty day too. I am going to just hope tommorow is better:hug: