So, I had a very violent outburst today

It was rather a number of hours ago.

I bought an optical mouse for my laptop a few weeks ago, and the goddamn thing never worked properly - the (@(%#^@#)$% pointer was always moving around the screen, and I'd use it for a few seconds, then it would fuck off for a minute or two, and then I could use it again for a few seconds...

Well, over the weeks, this has made me increasingly more and more pissed off.

Today, while trying to do something important and being in a bit of a rush, the @!(^%)#^& thing kept doing the same thing. My rage boiled up within me, and boiled and boiled, until I finally picked the mouse up and threw at my metal lamp. That felt kinda better - but only for a few seconds. The cursor was still running all over the fuckin' place, so I threw it again. Then again. and again and again and again - faster each time, and harder, with more and more rage. Still nothing working, so I picked it up by the cord and whipped it repeatedly, over and over, into the metal base of the lamp until the wires broke and the mouse went flying. Then I grabbed the mouse and ripped the goddamn buttons off it and threw it away.

Why do I tell you this? Not because I want you to tell me how I should have handled it in software, or ways I could have fixed it - if you feel the need to do that, you can go screw yourself. Is it because I want you to judge me for my violent outburst? No, again, if you feel the need to do that let me offer a pre-emptive "go fuck yourself".

It's because it's totally, totally unlike me, and I feel the need to share it with you, my friends in cyberspace. I never break things when I'm angry. Actually, I'm rarely angry. The last time I smashed something in anger was when I put my fist through the wall when I was in 10th or 11th grade because my dad came home drunk again, for like the 1500th day in a row.

I really surprised myself! And I'm pissing at myself because I'm sure I could have returned it to Amazon and had it replaced to see if that was the problem, and now I've wasted $18 and been a very bad steward of our natural resources. Though I think the real culprit is that my laptop has *@(%&#^%# Windows @#*$(&% ME, which is such an utter POS I have many times sworn at it.

But, again, we're not here to talk software or what I *could* have done or *should* done. I only want to tell my story, because it helps me feel better.

So, many thanks for listening, and for your empathy!!

:hug:

I am of the school that says experiencing your rage without harming others is therapeutic.

Are you upset with yourself over it? Or are you cool with it?

And though you feel abashed now, I bet it was very satisfying at the time. I've wanted to pick up my entire computer and throw it out the window more times but I can't because I can't afford a new one and I'd go into major DU withdrawal.

Hey, it happened, you took out your frustration, no one got hurt (except for the inanimate mouse) - life goes on, right? Sometimes we lose it. :shrug:

I have a pretty quick trigger when things that should work don't. So, I'm familiar with the sudden violent outburst and the remorse you feel for having acted like an ass. The saving grace for me is my anger lasts about 2 seconds, then it's all over.

Sometimes the irrational is exactly what you need.

DS1's computer kill list

2 Kboards
1 Mouse
1 Server
1 CD Drive
1 Floppy Drive


All I ask for is for electronics to work as advertised, but that seems to be soo damn difficult for manufacturers these days :eyes:

Of course, NONE of these are after I started smoking da :smoke:

People for the Ethical Treatment of Accessories

Actually I do care. I'm sorry to hear you had such a crappy day. Its sounds like you may have gotten something out of your system so maybe the $18 was worth it.:argh:

I feel better - esp. seeing DS1's kill list.

I am one who places INCREDIBLE value on self-control and rational, logical thinking, so losing myself in the moment like that is indeed rather embarassing and shameful. But, on the other hand, since I am now averaging once every 18 years, I think I'm doing pretty well. :-)

And to those who asked - you're damned right it felt good at the time! Fuckin' POS. But I don't think it was the mouse - I think it was *@#*%^@ Windows ME. But if I'd smashed the laptop, I would be needing more than just your empathy.

I should write a letter to Bill Gates and just tell him to go fuck himself for releasing ME.

Mr. Bill Gates

Dear Mr. Gates:

I just want to say to you to please go fuck yourself for releasing ME. It's an utter piece of shit, and, while you had the common decency to quickly release a replacement, the fact that you, in your asshole-ness, decided to release that utter POS means that many people like me, who are stuck with a propriety POS version of your POSOS that they can't overwrite, have infinite instances of having shit explode in their faces. How would you like it if I came to your house and squeezed my colostomy bag into your mouth every 4.2 fucking hours?

Asshole.

Sincerely,
Rabrrrrrr

staplers, tape dispensers, small calculators, paper clip holders....do I need anger management?

Hope you feel better :hug:

you're a Democrat. If you were a pug, you would have finished your rant, kicked the dog, smacked the old lady and headed off to have a beer and a laugh with the good old boys.

I had ME on my laptop for several years. It finally broke where I couldn't fix it anymore.... finally put 2000 on it. Worked great until I spilled wine onto the keyboard. Bad plan ;)

I'm sorry you have to deal with it, it does suck. But so do lots of optical mouses. No one got hurt, you felt better, sounds like an ok deal to me. I had a punching bag in h.s. for that reason, to let that kind of anger out in a non-harmful, self-exhausting way.

I feel better! I actually managed, once, to get windows 97 to load on the laptop. But when I replaced the hard drive, I tried, over and over, and it just wouldn't install. So I had to go to the "wonderful" Toshiba pre-made abomination of ME.