*sigh*

There's no chipper Blondie this morning, sorry guys. Don't feel like faking happiness. This weekend was really amazing. My marine 'friend' was in town and things were just wonderful. I even received the best kiss of my life so far. But all good things must come to an end, and they did Sunday morning. He'll deploy in 2 days. :(

I never realized how hard saying goodbye would be. (we've had goodbyes before, but none as hard as this). So, yeah. I've sunk into a depressed state and fear they'll be no goooood mornings for a few days. *sigh*

but I can understand you totally. :hug:
To imagine to say goodbye to my bf for such a long time would almost break my heart. It is hard enough for me to say goodbye to him when I only see him not for a week or two.

But I am glad that you had such a good time with him.

:( I guess I'm just in a pity me mood. Thanks for taking the time to write. :hug: Saying goodbye really sucks and I hope you never have to do it!! :)

and saying goodbye always sucks, no matter how long one is seperated.

It is OK for you in a pity mood. Everybody has the right to be. And who wouldn't be in such situation?

:hug: Thanks for listening to my bitching. :hug: How was YOUR weekend?

Friday afternoon it looked like I was only to see my bf for some hours Saturday afternoon/evening but then it turned out he didn't have to work Sunday, so I had him then also. We went to my mom, had a nice dinner and great conversation. My mom had finally the chance to get a better impression of my bf. Second time they met. And I was happy to have him close to me. He is such a sweet guy *beam*

And that you got to spend a lot of time with him.

and I hope I see him next weekend also. We have a long weekend (Eastern) and I plan to spend the time with him, even so he has to work. But today he wrote me an email, telling me he might have to go on a business trip. I don't know when though. But I have the feeling he will be gone by the weekend already. I will know tonight.

Then you can spend the whole weekend together. :(

but most of the times such business trips are ordered short term. But believe me, I really want to spend those 4 days with him. And he is looking forward to it also. I talked to him last night after we both were home again. And I told him I want to come to him Thursday night already. And his answer was "I definitely hope so".

Saturday when we saw each other again, we barely could keep our hands to each other and I have now a love bite on my neck like I am still 16 years old (kinda embarrasing)

I know the feeling.

just not at spots where they can be seen by family and co-workers ... lol

:) But then the ones that are really fun aren't there anyway.

so I better stop :evilgrin:

:) But I'm sure the stories would be rather entertaining!

did you made it a unforgettable night with your marine?

Yes yes and yes!! :D Almost a 4 hour unforgettable night/morning.

now make sure he won't forget it while he is downrange

I guess I failed to mention he turned his cell phone off (no use in having it). So that sucks also. :) But he'll call (my heart knows that but I'm trying to convince my mind). Hopefully he'll think of me and have an even better reason to come home.

once they are downrange they are happy about hearing from home and emailing or sending and receiving letters. It helps them to get through there.

I had email contact with more than one guy I met online while they where downrange. It helps them to get their mind away from the war.

Ah! Don't want to think about it anymore. My head's about to explode.

he will get in contact with you.

:hug:

:hug::hug: we'll keep you company :hug:

I knew I could count on you guys. :hug: How was your weekend?

I took it easy. Changed my coffee to decaf and avoided getting nuts about anything.

You're so sweet!!

WOO HOO! Gotta love decaf! (actually, I'll take your word for it lol).

Decaf coffee is OK if it's fresh. But giving up all of the other things that I enjoy will be worse until I find acceptable substitutes.

So You and I can be a little grumpy together. We'll work at keeping each other's smile going.

Not sure how I'll do on my end of the bargain, but still! How come you're giving up these things?

I went to see a cardiologist last week. He ran an EKG and it looks like I've had one heart attack. My blood pressure was way high. I have an appointment to run several test and figure out how to proceed from there.
I've been checking my blood pressure since last week and it does seem like it's not white-coat hypertension as I thought.
So - now I may need to give up a few more of my favorite things. :evilfrown:

i'LL give you a good kiss. :loveya:

and i'LL be here to heLp you out. :D

:loveya: You're so wonderful.

:hi: Sorry to hear, I do know the feeling. 6 years in the Navy, I know it all too well. :(

I don't have any magic remedies but a :hug: and

In this case, you can have a doughnut. :donut:

:) I forgot about that. Sucks, doesn't it? What was going on in your mind before you left? He's so friggin hard to read!

And thanks for the remedies! They are surprisingly effective!

You let me have a doughnut?? No way!! :D

probably why I didn't go out of my way to find someone. I spent my young adult years in and out of port. I should probably deal with that. :(

I'm glad you finally got to see your favorite Marine.

Yes, you can have 1 doughnut, then off to Sgt. Trainer for you!

I can't imagine what you guys go/went through. I give you MAJOR kudos. :hug: How was your weekend?

And thanks. :)

Spent all my energy on St. Pat's day and night!
:beer: :beer: :beer: :party: :party: :party:

Watched my team (Ga. Tech) win Fri, then get sent home on Sun. Did a dble workout on Sun, sent the baby blanket and birthday party on Sat. I had fun. I did practice my keyboard and soccer and taichi over the weekend, but not enough.

Where'd he take you over the weekend? :)

I feel so bad for you :-( I can imagine how much you're hurting,
but please hang in there - things will eventually start to look up! :hug: We will all be there for you anytime you need us! :pals:

I'm glad you're here this morning. :hug: I feel like such a loser for complaining so much (I know people do this all the time). It's just, I finally had him back for a few days and I realized what good times we were missing and then BOOM. He's gone again. *sigh*

So how was your weekend?

:hug: I think that's why I'm such a chicken about hooking up with someone - don't think I could take the pain ;(

My weekend was good - Saturday, I just vegged out all day, and yesterday I had a wedding shower.

:hi:

When's the other one?

Yeah, normally pain is always a promise when it comes to love. Guess that's why they say it's the best and worst feeling in the world.

April 3rd and another one April 10th :wow:

You are definitely right about that, love can be the best and worst feeling in the world - both at the same time!

I'm so sorry. :-( Remember, we're all here to give you a big :grouphug:, so try to :-)!

I'm sure he knows how lucky he is to have you there. You gave me some really good advice when I needed it and I'm the happiest I've been in months, it sucks things have taken a turn like this for you. I hope you two can make it through this and once you guys do, you'll be so incredibly close you both will never want to do anything to each other that might seperate you 2. It's a test and I hope you both pass, but I'll be praying nothing terribly bad happens. You deserve better from life and if you stay the way you are life will reward you. :hug: I'm sure my advice comes no where near as helpful as your advice you've given to me but I still wish you the best.