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It is because I have a side of me that is rather insecure about myself and believes that no one really likes me and if they do, for some strange reason, I am going to mess that up soon by any wrong little things I do. For my closest friends, they have to put up with stuff like "Are you angry at me or something? Is that why you didn't come over? I am really sorry about..."(some ridiculous small thing that I think that they could have possibly been offended by) or my email to my best friend who no longer works with me "I was going to wait for you to email me but I found out that you already emailed my husband and (blank) and I was feeling left out. Is it because you didn't like the card I got you? Is it because I said very little to you on your last day? Or is it because I am so annoying when I am paranoid like this?". I am just doing what I was taught during the anxiety support group: "If you have anxiety over something someone did and fear it is because of you, you should confront them as soon as possible in order to deal with the situation." I think that I go overboard sometimes. I only do it with people who matter a lot to me and know that I am weird like this.
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