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Catholic High School Junior year, 2 months before my dad rotated overseas to Germany, I hooked up with a hot little redhead. My first time girl. Did un-godly things. Rotated out to Germany and got a few love letters, then the dreaded Dear John.
Freshman year in College (University Maryland, Augsburg) hooked up with a curly hair blonde during my Frat pledge. Made love in our dorm rooms, which was probably very awkward for my 3 room-mates.....well probably not since they were doing it to their girlfriends too.......flunked out of college and moved back stateside.
That same year, met the one I loved the most, most, most! Never had any physical relations with her other than kissing but I loved her and she said she loved me too. We went to her prom together and I rented us a Jaguar. I caught her making out with a friend IN MY OWN HOUSE.....IN MY COMPUTER ROOM and it broke my heart in two million, tiny, jagged, razor edged shards. I bought her tickets to see Steve Miller and the Doobie Brothers and that night she wanted to make love, but I said NO. (It was the hardest thing I've ever done in my LIFE! But, I feel it took courage to say no, even tho it was what I wanted more than anything on earth.) I was still hurt from seeing her with someone else. She moved away to college and crazily enough, we wrote each other love letters for 6 years while seeing other people, although she always said she has loved me. Saw her only 3 years ago, the last time and she said that if she hadn't moved away to college we'd be married by now. Haven't talked to her since, but I know she lives in my town now. Anyway, it has been a time period of 10 years from when we first met to now.)
I'm dyin' to contact her. I wish I had the guts to look for her and try and talk to her but she's always had a boyfriend whenever we see or talk and it kills me and I get really depressed for a while.
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