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Ok, I just have to speak out. Have any of you ever felt that all you are is a sounding board? For 39 fucking years it seems that all I do is listen to peoples problems and never have a chance to express my feelings. If I ever do, it is told to me that I am being selfish and self-absorbed. How come I have to deal with this shit all the time? These days it is that they are having problems with their kids or spouses. They have too much to deal with their girlfriends/boyfriends. Just because I am single with no children, I am not supposed to have any feelings, emotions, thoughts or any other life. They are the one who’s lives really matter and because I am not in their situations I should just listen and shut the fuck up. I am sick of it!
I am sick of being everyone’s leaning post, I am sick of being everyone’s ear, I am sick of being everyone’s napkin to cry on. Get a fucking life people! I have taken enough of your whiney ass bullshit and I am not going to listen anymore. I am tired of your woes and hardships!
Just for once….listen to my pain, hurt, thoughts, emotions, happiness, joy, problems and life situations. Stop interrupting me with “but me, but I”, stop hurting yourself over and over and running back to me just to do it all over again and expecting me to listen to your bullshit!
Yes I am a good friend; the best friend you can ever find, but I just want to share that friendship. I want to be able to tell you my thoughts and not have you get pissed that I am all about me, when all you want to do is yap about your own problems.
This is just a rant because I have been emotionally used over and over and I am sick of it. I know it has been my fault, but I am done. I wanted to express myself to some people so I can get it out of my system. I am done being an emotional sponge to be discarded when the other person finds their “true happiness” for a few moments and then tries to patch it up with me when their moment of glory fades. This is not about one person, this is about many through my life and I am done being an asshole for them all to shit their problems out thru…as of this day. Thank you for listening. No need to reply.
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