Guess i am not cut out for fund raising , oh man !

I posted a while ago about a fund raising job using high tech computer stuff .
I made it through the two 4 hour class rooms training , Today after thinking about it for the last three days I went in for the actual call training where you sit in a spot and actually do the calls to get your feet wet ( so they said ) well I almost drown .

We were put on the heritage group the Conservative think tank rush the fats and Cheney the tin man seem to boast about .

I got answering machines and a few who immediately hung up and a few who said they don't do anything over the phone and a few rude ones .

They said this is different from telemarketing , well it's not , you are calling and asking for donations and they claim it was not cold calling , this I suppose enters a new area , it depends on what you consider cold , i can attest to the fact that the people I called were very cold .

I have to admit , I am not cut out for this at all . I made it through 2 1/2 hours and got the trainers attention and said , I am not cut out for this , it is not me and I can tell I am not going to make it here . He said I am far from the first one , many just walk out and never say a thing at the first break or never show up again .

I filled out a voluntary form to quit and a form telling what I thought about the training and all of this and went off .

i did not want to burn the bridge . At the min or $8 per hour and a max of 40 hours a week and the slim chance I would get the max ask which is double their last donation amount and god knows when the last time was , could have been more than a year ,who knows . i knew I could not make it on this money and above this It was just not my thing .

i have been out of work for three and a half months and now feel like a failure because I did not stick it out , after all it was not like being a troop in Iraq . I feel I have failed . And now the search continues for some real job and I don't care if it's sweeping floors but nothing that has to do will sales , I am no salesman , not by a long shot . If I knew the product then i could deal with selling in a store or as i did selling service work at a ford dealership but right now there is not one opening in that field , not one .

Oh Man , what to do and will I find it before we run out of rent money and the few things I have left to sell . I feel that sinking feeling where i can't eat today , you know the one , right ? Tell me I'm not alone , what would you have done ?

William the quitter

that I didn't have the steel gut necessary for selling somebody something they don't really need or want.

Maybe a temp agency would be of service - that's what I
always did when nothing was panning out (which was usually).