Do you think more about Life or Death?

I know it's a morbid question. but my personality is one that focuses on doom most of the time. Very rarely do I wake up deliriously happy to be alive. First thing I usually do is log onto DU and see what tragedy occured while I was away.

If there is none, I'll be damned sure to find one somewhere. Which leads me to the reality I've known about myself since I was 8 and caught on to the fact that my family was a bunch of freaks and too dysfunctional to continue their lineage. Thus, no kids for me.

Since 2000, with the stolen presidency, 9/11, Kerry's fuckup, Iraq, the facism we're living under, I don't know whether I'm happy to be miserable, or miserably happy.

Today, I'm listening to Dylan and planning funerals. I have no business living in my own head. I have no business listening to my own advice.

So, as Dylan says. "he not busy being born, is busy dying." I know what I'm busy doing. What about you all?

I've already outlived most of my aunts, uncles and my father. My family rarely made it to 55 so I guess as I am approaching my 58th birthday thinking about my own demise is inevitable. There was a country song that became a big hit two years ago about Live Like You Were Dying and I do because the end will come someday but hopefully not today.





Tim McGraw ~ Live Like You Were Dying

He said: "I was in my early forties,
"With a lot of life before me,
"An' a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
"I spent most of the next days,
"Looking at the x-rays,
"An' talking 'bout the options an' talkin’ ‘bout sweet time."
I asked him when it sank in,
That this might really be the real end?
How’s it hit you when you get that kind of news?
Man whatcha do?

An' he said: "I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

He said "I was finally the husband,
"That most the time I wasn’t.
"An' I became a friend a friend would like to have.
"And all of a sudden goin' fishin’,
"Wasn’t such an imposition,
"And I went three times that year I lost my Dad.
"Well, I finally read the Good Book,
"And I took a good long hard look,
"At what I'd do if I could do it all again,
"And then:

"I went sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I gave forgiveness I'd been denying."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Like tomorrow was a gift,
And you got eternity,
To think about what you’d do with it.
An' what did you do with it?
An' what can I do with it?
An' what would I do with it?

"Sky diving, I went rocky mountain climbing,
"I went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu.
"And then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter,
"And I watched Blue Eagle as it was flyin'."
An' he said: "Some day, I hope you get the chance,
"To live like you were dyin'."

Thanks for the lyrics.

We're all going to die someday, so I don't focus on that at all. I focus on having the best possible life NOW and into the foreseeable future. :D

I've still got lots to do...

I thank God I have my animals, who are utterly and completely dependent on me. Otherwise I might just vacate.

I'm completely dependent on my cats. I need them.

and while I thought at times it was very hard to go on normally, and in other times, life turns out to be so beautiful and I get a thrill of joy in very small things. I've been at the deep end, but somehow it's never made me drown completely.

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(And no, I'm not just saying this to flirt.)

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You said it better than I could. :)

You're a good guy, Zombie.

:)

And I you, now. :)

:)

I'm kind of morbid. Death is something I look forward to. I believe reincarnation is possible and hope for it. I just hope I live in California next time around and am born a male in a male body (I realize I should be specific about these things.) I am working as hard as I can to get my education right now, but sometimes I wonder if I ever will get to go to California or anywhere besides NC.

I am so not ready to die, by any means!

:kick:

Then for some reason, I wrote a letter in my head to the people who would have to take care of my worldly goods and occupy the space I had left.
Try it.

You will realize that you have this crazy life that is made up of all sorts of small things that need tending. Example: I would want people to maintain my wild back yard for the animals. They would have to be alert to the comings and goings of the migrating birds - make sure their nesting places are clean and safe. They would have to save the apples for the birds and the nuts for the blue jays.

I saw from your homepage that you are a creative person - no one can take over that so you are comitted to this life whether you know it or not.

As far as waking up happy - NEVER. I get up in the morning to have a cigarette!

The living take care of themselves and people go on, they move on to other things.

Lauren Bacall said of Humphrey Bogart -
"Bogie himself said that dead is dead and life is for the living and you've got to move on - and if you don't, it's self-indulgent and does the dead no good. He said it dishonoured them because if they gave you so little care for your own life, then they didn't leave you with very much."

The problem is - we've got to focus on how to keep our troops from being sent in to fight in bogus wars, only to be killed in bogus wars started by extremist administrations like the Bush admin.

These guys in the White House don't care about the people who have been killed in Iraq.
Tony Snow said it himself - "It's a number", referring to the 2500 soldiers that have already been killed in Iraq.
It's fairly obvious that most of the people in Congress don't care either.
It's a Republican controlled Congress is why.

We need to start thinking about life, not death.
We need to respect all people's lives, not just those of Americans, the way the Republicans do these days.

Bush's only veto was against science - against stem cell research that promoted life, to help prevent death.

If Bush had a personal flag of his very own - it would be the skull and cross bones of the Jolly Roger pirate flag!
Because lord knows, they've pirated the funds of this country and are spending them on their own priorities, industries that benefit them personally, but not the American public.

If we don't change the direction of Congress this fall - by electing more Democrats - we can't force the change of Bush's misguided foreign policy in Iraq.

That's it in a nutshell.

Our tax dollars are being poured like water into the sands of the Iraqi desert.
They don't grow anything there - they just evaporate in the heat.

Just think how many schools could have built with the 200 MILLION DOLLARS they spent in Iraq just today.

They are spending 200 MILLION DOLLARS A DAY in Iraq - for nothing.
Because it is all evaporating.

How many rednecks in the South that supported Bush in 2004 wouldn't agree that they could build better schools in the South with that kind of money?

Or, gawd forbid, have national health care?
I don't know anyone in the South, or in the North for that matter, who wouldn't rather have that kind of money spent right here at home on something like national health care, that would benefit ALL Americans.

But Bush's party says we can't afford national health care.
Lieberman even criticized Hillary Clinton's idea for national health care in 1994, calling it "Hillary Care".

But, now, now that the deficit is making new records every year - they don't care for the average American, the little guy, Joe SixPack.

The National debt is over 3 TRILLION DOLLARS now.

Bush's plan is to "stay the course" - spend us into prosperity, write blank checks, and let the grandkids pay for it.

Bush already blew through Clinton's projected budget surplus within his first 2 years in office.

So, Bush could be on vacation.

Down in Crawford, Texas.

Bush has already spent more vacation time than any President before him, and he still has 2 more years to go!

Great records for Bush to be proud of.