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You know, sometimes you just walk through life, doing your very best. Most of the time, it is the best that you can do, just working towards your goals, one step at a time.
I've always tried to do that. Or, at least, when I gained the wisdom of just taking one step at a time, towards my various goals, I learned to do that--just take one step at a time. It is most probable, logically, that that is all that you CAN do, in a lifetime. Taking the next step, even when you don't know where it is going, is usually the best decision, in most cases, I suppose.
I think that what is flooring me at this time is that my steps are leading towards something much bigger than what I envisioned them as, in my lifetime
I have done a really good job, don't get me wrong. I usually DO do a really good job, in whatever I set my mind to. It's just that, this time, it means a lot. It means people's lives.
And that scares me. I do not like to have that much responsibility. It is horrible to me.
I like to work. I like to do a good job. But what that means is frightening to me now; it is too big now. It affects too many lives. I don't like that at all.
I am afraid. And I don't know who else to tell this to. I am very proud of the work that I have done. I know that it is correct.
I am just afraid of something else. I am not sure what.
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