Existing in a vacuum of despair is so fucking monotonous.

I need a whack on the back of the head to snap out of this. Depression can be soooooo self absorbing at times especially when it becomes comfortable.

I've felt like shit for so long, I have forgotten what feeling good feels like!!

Better? :shrug:

:rofl:

You're my best buddy.

Ok, not really, I just like that smiley. :rofl:



And a :hug: for you, cuz you're my best buddy too!

Sketchy..

:P

:evilgrin:

Now snap out of it.

:hug:

I've missed seeing you around here.

I was afraid to come here for awhile

He'll chew up all your shit and give you something else to be annoyed about

how does graywarrior know, then I thought, well, I'm so self absorbed that I've probably not left any doubt in anyone's mind that this is the case.

I'll whack you if you'll whack me, and we can whack each other, off and on as needed :P...!!!!!!:yoiks:

I'll whack you if you'll whack me, and we can whack each other, off and on as needed

:rofl:

:rofl:


Are you are the PEV king! :P

Yes indeed.

:rofl:

But they said you were were on some newb's lap listening to a bedtime story.

:blush:


that's right, I was :P

Will you clean my screen now please? :spray: :rofl::rofl::rofl:

:D

:rofl:

then whack me! off and on as needed :D

:hi:

and then she posted all those pics last week and now :P


:rofl:

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha...unlike me who curls up in the fetal position when the phone rings.

I hang my head in shame...

you've done well grasshopper :D

;)

snatch the pebbles from my, wait, those aren't pebbles :think:



:rofl:

:rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl:

:rofl:

:evilgrin:


:D

But then again Mainegreenland has the following:
1) 4 hours of sleep a night broken into 15 minute chunks
2) Constant unending back pain
3) A smelly diaper pail next to the computer
4) Currently: wet jeans from baby pee
5) Possibly fleas from the cat

Mainegreenland however sometimes has late night reefer on Friday nights much like this one. In fact very much nights like this one

Sorry about the depression. I've known enough people, people really close to me, to know that it ain't no fucking joke. Hope you find your path out of it.

I watched some real kick ass fights from my porch. A good one was where this guy was being followed out of the neighboring building while the woman was following him screaming something about having fucked him, and did his girlfriend know, while being followed by her two kids. The guys (I presume) girlfriend was in the car waiting for him, but wouldn't unlock the door to let him in, so he was begging to be let in while getting a nice verbal assault. Then the cops showed up. We were all hanging out on the porch with our beers enjoying the show.

That's right! All the summer brews are out. I love summer brews. So crisp. Especially Shipyard's.

The weathers been good to so far this summer. Not to hot, not to cold.

Still, aren't you in Boston yet?

:shrug:

No, I am still in Sarasota...it's difficult to leave here when you have just enough to stay.

Mmmmm, Grant street.

It amazes me how one street in Portland can be so elegant but right around the corner there is a neighborhood of junkies and lowlifes.

On the third floor fire escape.



At two in the morning.








:P

Seriously though, rant and roll and let us try to make tonight a little better for ya.

Only you can find the way up and out. It's so hard, I think I've forgotten the way. I hope you haven't. :hug: :hug:

I'm getting too involved in what I have been writing. Secrets and truth all around me. I need a shrink.

I needed one to find a place of equilibrium. No more despair & I appreciate that. You should do it, gray.

Opening up the box of hidden secrets is fucking with my head. I forgot how much I forgot and who was involved. Heavy shit, man.

Maybe you need to forget you ever saw the box but more likely you aren't going to be able to do that. Sometimes I hang on to the idea that we are confronted with horrible shit for a reason. Could you gain anything from what you're going through?

I know, tried and trite. Still, it can be the last source of strength. If there's ever anything I can do you KNOW I'm on your side, graywarrior.

I uncovered some stuff that I considered a normal part of my day back when, but now realize it was totally wrong.

Doesn't it mean that you've moved beyond, though? The fact that it occurred "back when"?

normal freaks me out. I think I have PTSD from growing up where I did.

I have the strangest mixture of guilt, combined with the desire to go back to not knowing. Wow. I really feel for you.

I never realized how many friends I had in school who hinted at suicide and we all just shrugged it off til they did it and then we shrugged it off again.

That's the reason. Just don't let it sink you.

I get it, that's all. That, and I empathize. :hug:

http://liveearth.msn.com/concerts


Australia is kicking it off. :bounce:

:(

But Eskimo Joe and Wolfmother are, so that's good. :bounce:

Spinning classes make me want to run a hundred miles.

1) Remember it's not as bad as it feels, it just feels that way.

2) Find the irony in things. See the humor and strangeness in everyday things.

3) When someone tells you to "just snap out of it"...kick them in the balls...hard...and make a mental note about how "humorous" and "strange" they look.

:hug:

:rofl:

Was NOT expecting that.
Glad I could... help.

Here's a reasonable facsimile....I hope:

Your first image shows up here...

:evilgrin:

Seriously, I know exactly where you're coming from...

:hug:

RL

And I've seen those pics of you. I was in awe.

(Gawd, I'm a tease...)

RL

I will need to see those pics to make sure they are compliant with sec 43.d, chapter 7, of the internet picture associations copyright manual.

Ok, I am lying, I am just a perv.

:rofl:

:applause:

RL

You're a married woman...

I don't mess with married.... Oh, wait... Uhm... Never mind...

:D

RL

with my stalkers...

:D

RL

if you know what I mean...

:D

RL

I'm so thick sometimes....self absorbed and all.

:D

I just don't want to cause any problems for my, well, friend...

There will be confession time in the future, count on it...

RL

Check your PM...

RL

:hi:

Did you get it?

RL

I spent a week with tons of friends from all over the country--drinkin', talkin', reminiscin', having a great time. Then I came back here, where I have no friends and no social life. Just my job.

Thank God for my pets.

Sorry things are crappy for you, too. Wish I could do something to snap you out of it. If it's any consolation, I'm always happy to open a post, see the duck--and know it's you!!

i love to wallow in it:P