Tonight....I'm standing on the outside...

My face is pressed up against the window...

Inside, I see a huge party going on...

Groups of happy folks in colorful dress talking, laughing and eating...

The huge fireplace is lit with a roaring blaze...

The tables are laden with wonderful foods...


I am hungry...

And alone...

Why am I not allowed in?

:hug:

I'm OK, sweetie...

But just a tiny bit melancholy, and I have no idea why...

Just thought I'd wax poetic about it for once...

Thanks...:hug:

i know it happens, but i'm sorry you're feeling a little bit down tonight

:hug:

Maybe it's all the rain here in LA...I've not seen it so dreary in this area in a long time.

It is gloomy today, isn't it?

Are you in LAX?

We do need the rain, and there's snow in the mountains, which will delight the skiers!

I'm much better today, thank you...:hug:

Have an all - night flight tonight (yech!). We didn't pick up the runway until about 300 feet last night. It's kind of rare to see that here!

You didn't see the runway till you were 300 feet above it? :scared:

Have a nice quiet hopefully sleepy day!

It's reassuring when people you know are in positions of great responsibility...:hug:

The landing was hand flown, but instrument approaches are the only option in weather like that. Fortunately, we have some great equipment, particularly on the plane I'm flying these days.

When I was a freshman in college, I hated it when my roommates were invited to parties but I wasn't.

Eventually I learned to - and please don't distort this - make my own fun.

I won't distort this, sweetie...

I understand you completely...

But tonight I was unable to do that...

Hence this thread.

Thank you for being here for me, sweetie...:hug:

Thank you.

...by the double edged sword that is at once both happiness and emptiness.

Wow, what a great metaphor!

And how true it is....

Thank you...:hug:

And thank you for sharing your vulnerability. You might consider waxing poetic more often -- it's inspirational.

:hug:

I do write poetry from time to time...

I have no problem sharing my vulnerability...

I really appreciate your very kind words...

:hug:

(Although some are better than others) I never metaphor I didn't like! ;)

:hug: I understand that feeling

I know you do, sweetie...

We talked about it earlier...:hug:

but I didn't go, because I was afraid I'd be the only one there in a toga!

I hope you're soon feeling better! :hug:

I hear ya! I'd probably have done the same...

I will be fine, thanks to you and all my good friends here with me tonight... :hug:

Here's an e-hug, and in case your wondering you are much loved at all our tables.
:hug:

Ah, you made me laugh!

I appreciate your e-hug muchly, sweetie! :hug:

(at least everyone knows why their hugging ;) )

You have mail, BTW...

I also love real-life hugs, though...

Real life hugs are always the best. I had a rare & wonderful lingering RL hug earlier tonight.

The best part was knowing w/o talking -- just breathing together & letting it last as long as we wanted to (it's been a long time).

E-hugs sustain me through the rough times because they're always sincere. No one on DU gives you a :hug: without meaning it. It's not as physically satisfying as a RL hug, but it always has a way of soothing the soul. :)

I know how you feel.

:hug:

Come, sit at my table....

We will eat, and talk, and laugh...forever.:hug:

For the longest time, I thought that I was used to being alone. Then I'm given a glimpse of what its like to be with someone again, and then the door is slammed in my face. I want that feeling back again.

:hug:

I'm here for you...:hug:

Wish I could help you find someone to love...

its just hard, I sometimes wish I could turn my emotions off, it would make things easier. Thank you for being there for me. :hug:

We are in the greatest danger when we try to turn our emotions off.

Loneliness sucks.

I've been lonely much of my life' and I'll never get used to it. It's not the natural state of things; but it's part of life.

Some of the greatest lessons I've learned came through the loneliness of asserting the individual that I am.

You are also an individual (with a good heart, as well). Your emotions drive you (as mine do).

Don't push yourself to be something that is different from your nature -- simply let your nature out. Trust & allow yourself to be yourself.

Don't give a shit if you get criticized. Everyone gets criticized!

I'd rather get criticized for what I believe in, than for sucking up to whatever!!!

IF I lived closer, I'd bring some by
California Christmas, senora.
Here's a virtual bottle--warms the body, heart and soul

Now, that looks lovely!

Thank you, sweetie...

That is so kind of you... :hug:

My Christmas will be wonderful...all our kids, spouses/so's and grandchildren are coming here!

I am fine...not to worry...

:pals:

I carry the wood to be burned.

:hug:

Let me help you...

It won't be so heavy then...

Maybe we can sneak some food afterwards...

Nobody'll notice... :hug:

I'm sure you've heard that before...

My hunger lacks diet though... once I bite... I will fill my belly.

:loveya:

And it never grows old, sweetie...

Thank you...:loveya:

Ezra.

Ezra who?

Ezra no hope for me in this world!

Dear Ms. Peggy, I've been feeling alittle blue myself. We don't need to feel this way. So, pull up a chair and sit and chat about whatever makes us happy, and chase the blues away.

Of course you could be feeling blue because you're standing out in the cold.

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

How about a nice glass of Peach and Cherry soft serve ice cream. It's sure to make you less hungry, although it doesn't make you warm inside.

Ah, how much I apppreciate your very kind words!

Your peach and cherry soft serve ice cream sounds wonderful!

It wouldn't warm my stomach...but it would warm my heart...

Thank you...

:hug:

It's very depressing

You need to take your face away from that window and focus on the good things in your life -much easier said than done, I know. I'm still trying to live that advice

:hug: :hug:

How right you are...

I seem to be blue when I'm tired ...

And I was, last night...

It's better today...and I hope for you as well, sweetie...

Thank you...:hug: :hug:

..... there's a food fight!!! :P

:rofl:

SERIES!!

Don't look!! I don't either.

But they send me presents! :P :woohoo:

Why?

I have no idea and neither do they. Habit?

:loveya:

They send you presents because they love you!

I'll stay away from any food fights, for sure! :scared:

Thank you for your good and funny thoughts, sweetie...

:loveya:

:hug:

I almost hope that this is just a metaphor and there isn't a party going on that you have not been invited to...

I hope you're feeling better this morning.

Not to worry...it was indeed a metaphor...

And I am much better today...

Thank you for being here for me...:hug:

I feel that way too, often. :(

With me, it's mostly because of all the stuff I can't do anymore. I find myself envying people who can do simple things like walk, and walk up and down stairs, and who can go out dancing while I sit at home.

But it passes. We all have the life we have, and that's what we have to deal with everyday. :hug:

I know you feel that way often...

I'm fussing because last night I was a little blue about stuff that is truly silly compared to what you're going through...

Everything you say is so right...

Thank you for reminding me of perspective...:hug:

don't think I'm trying to belittle what you're feeling. My situation shouldn't diminish the importance of what you're feeling. :hug:

I'm just saying we can both understand, and commiserate. :)

Perspective is definitely important, but don't ever feel that your feelings aren't important just because someone else has some problems you don't have. Everyone's life is their own, and challenges can't always be ranked.

Everything you've said here is so damn true...

Thank you...:hug:

looking in from the outside gives you a better view and lets you see things more clearly. :hug:

Indeed, that is a valuable thought...

As I said to ThomCat, perspective is important...

Thank you, sweetie...:hug:

I feel your pain, this Christmas is the worst.................:cry:......:hi:












"When fear is too terrible, when reality is too agonizing, we seek escape in manufactured danger, in the thrills and pleasures of pretending-in the amusement parks of our unamusing world. Here, in frantic pretending, Man finds escape and temporary peace, and goes home tired enough to sleep a short, deep sleep. But what happens here when night comes? When pretending ends, and reality begins?"

Aw, sweetie...

I'm sorry your Christmas isn't so good...

I'm much better today, and I hope you will shortly be better too... :hug:

Thank you...