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I know the Lounge is filled with much more serious stuff these past couple days, and I should be thankful for what I have, a nice apartment, job, and family, but I want to just be pissy right now.
I've vented about money problems many many times before. Things are always tight, but they are slowly getting a little better. With the birth of Little Robot, we have decided we want to get out of our apartment and find a home of our own. Well, no, that won't happen.
Credit rating is in the toilet, and that is being nice. The Ex-Mrs Giant Robot left me with a crapload of credit card debt that took years to pay off. That looks horrible, but now I only have one small line of credit that gets used, not too much, and paid down regularly, you know trying to get my credit score back up some. I basically have no debt except for a couple hundred dollars.
We do not have a lot of money to put down right now, and to save up to get 10% down will take a while. Between daycare and getting paid crap, it just takes its toll on finances.
We are going to work with a mortgage company in town to help us out however they can, and their first plan is to talk with someone they recommended to repair my credit. I appreciate their efforts and understand where they are coming from, but I want to bang my head on the wall. Repair my credit? How the hell is that going to happen? I have seen my credit report and there is nothing incorrect in there, although some things need to be updated. I have one open credit card that is used responsibly and paid on time. No one else will give me credit. I feel like since I have screwed up my credit rating, I am not stuck in a catch-22 that no one will give me credit, well except for this one place that has my credit line, and I need credit lines to get good credit.
I have a lot to be thankful for, and I know dwelling is not good for the soul. But fuck me how many times must I pay for making this huge mistake with credit? Can this mythical entity please stop punishing me now. It's so discouraging and I feel like there is nothing I can do to make this better.
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