I'm severely depressed today

damn , not getting a break at all, I was so happy last week I knew a crash was coming .

What would I give just to feel ok , not extremely happy sometimes and then extremely sad other times.

It is tiresome , I am tired , my cloth are tired , my skin is tired, my bones are tired , my weariness is tired .

I feel for you, truly I do.

*wink* *wink*

I registered once, but I forgot my handle and password.

It seems that to look through the list of user names, you have to have a user name. I have Oak Cliff Dem now, and I can't remember my old one.

The Democratic Party is winning where it counts. We are going to win the President, House, and Senate.

All is not as dark as it seems, you have just been having a string of bad days, today will be different.

It is a brand new day, let's all enjoy it.

cheers from the other side of the 'plex :toast:

I've had bipolar since I'm 17. No fun except the highs....which are always followed by the lows....ALWAYS.

I know we are not supposed to give advise but two very reputable doctors told me the latest information with regard to bipolar is a combination of Lithium and Lamictal work the best. And I can attest to that.

Otherwise, know that this WILL pass.
It has passed every time in the past right?

Be kind and gentle to yourself and know that there are many many people who care for you here.

:hug: :grouphug:

I deal with depression myself. I have for years.

Some days, it's so damned hard. I can feel euphoric and like you said, I'll then crash.

I'm on meds, which stablizes the bad stuff.

If you haven't yet, please see a doctor about it.

I hope it gets better for you.

...or trying a different antidepressant? If you've been on this med for a long time, perhaps you should try a different approach. There are several other drugs that work differently on different people, and that sometimes simply stop working. To a great extent, it is up to you to manage this aspect of your care, as depression still isn't well understood by many doctors.

Best wishes to you.

brain receptors get sort of immune to a particular chemistry and kind of numbs off the benefits. A change of med PROPERLY WEANED can make a great difference.

The wrong med for you can make you feel worse, too. My doc is real careful about all this stuff.

She tried me on Lexapro and I felt like a zombie. So scratched that, did the wean/setup on new transition, and now I have a time release Wellbutrin which is a major improvement over the Lexapro.

has had depression problems for most of her adult life. It's a real roller coaster. Hope a hug might help. :hug: It will get better, hang in there. :grouphug:

This sounds like how I've felt the last few years, very high ups and very low downs. I thought I'd learn to deal with it, I'd tell myself when I was down that I'd be so happy again soon :D but the past few months the downs last so long, it's debilitating, like I'm so filled with anger and fear and just can't do anything. I know I need some kind of help. But what doctor can I see who'd undo the bad news? I'm freaked out and scared about the mass-extinction/Earth-rape, so what's a doctor gonna do to change that? I'm pretty sure anyone I go to will just depress me more.
At least my mother-in-law is working out of town now so I don't have to deal with her baby-pressure in person until she comes back. But I still don't stop thinking of it, the issue that won't die, she suffers by not having a precious lil' naked grandbaby and I suffer by being related to someone who thinks giving the rest of this century to MY innocent kid is a good thing to do.

Sorry about that last stuff, this is just about the little ups and shitty downs.. Anger is most of it for me from now on.

important won't debilitate you as much. Trust me I know this.

I saw Mental Health Counselor for a while, to establish just what was going on, filled out a bunch of bubble dots on a test which confirmed what she thought after the interview. My ObGyn practically commanded me to see a counselor after I had a meltdown in his office....he had been my doctor for a long enough time that he knew this wasn't normal for me and not just 'peri menopausal' stuff (good doc, that)

So after the Mental Health and the GYN working together and the meds sort of got me back to normal, I hunted and found a good Family Practice MD (we didn't really have one anyway and we needed one) who manages my care wonderfully well, and I can also see her if I have bronchitis, abdominal pain, skin problems or back pain. (Back pain is a whole other issue she helped me with amazingly)

While all the big external worries of life are still going to be out there, getting the dark veil out of your head makes them much easier to live with, and you feel more like working to make it better.

Oh and about the baby obsessed Mom. Could you get away with telling her you want to adopt, and it just isn't happening yet? Adopted babies can be cute and naked too and you actually give a better life to a child, what could be better? I was totally convinced I did not ever want children until I married my second husband, at age 36 our daughter was born...best thing that ever happened to me, that kid. I wasn't ready in any way shape or form up until then.

That would help. I need to do to find out how to let go of the bad things that obsess me for a while.. when I'm happy and getting great stuff done it makes me happier. When I'm sitting around mad I just get more depressed.

(great as parenthood is I'd kill myself before I gave the rest of the century to an innocent one. I'm horrified by the news every day and I wish I was 87 instead of 37 since I know I'll be seeing much worse stuff before I die. Us lucky Americans will be the last to pay for how we've lived though :) ..I'm just not fit for this world.)

fact be uplifting a child, already born, that might not have made it otherwise or at least giving that child a better life.

If I were younger and didn't need to be working I would want to adopt but at 60 I am not sure that is the right thing for me.

If we hadn't been able to have our own child 24 years ago, we would have adopted definitely. No question about that at all.

Maybe looking at things from the kids point of view would ease some of my worry (I hope my panic about the extinctions wouldn't harm the kid, but anyways) when I told my husband I wasn't making a baby he said No to adopting because the baby wouldn't be his blood (the EGO reason for multiplying) but now that he's realized I'm not about to change my mind maybe he could think again about adopting.

This is another thing I can start to think about.. it's not so depressing either!

being "blood"

I sort of understand it but it really ticks me off. Little kids needs good home, you can provide it. win-win.

and your mom gets a naked little grandbaby

I fully expect my daughter to adopt if she ever gets in the mood for children, which may or may not be in my lifetime, which I also accept. It is her life not mine. That is what I get for being what the doctors call an 'elderly primagravida'. (woman over 35 pregnant for the first time)

Do you exercises at all? I've read that working out can help with depression almost as much as anti depressants can; Even as little as 20 minutes a day can make a difference in how you feel if you do it consistently.

You will feel good again. I also did my best to live in the moment during the good times and not think about the next crash.

I second the exercise suggestion. Just a walk around the block can pick me up a little.
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Can I sit with you a while?

that prozac is one of them. It seems to me like maybe trying medication specifically designed for this very real illness may be an option. I hope you call a doctor and see what you can try. I hope you feel better soon. :-)

is often used for bipolar disorder. In this case it is obviously not working and other medications are probably going to help more than the 30 mg of Prozac.
http://www.revolutionhealth.com/drugs-treatments/rating/prozac-for-bipolar-disorder-nos
http://bipolar.about.com/cs/sfx/a/sfx_prozac.htm

:(

I responded well to the first med I was on because it took care of 50% of the problem. That was a relief. Later I changed through several med regimes to get to where I am today which is much better, more like 95%. Everything I've read says that talking + meds is better than either one alone, so that's something to consider.

I was feeling a little out of sorts, then I remembered, Of course, it's August! For some reason August is a bad time for me, but it helped to remmebr that this is temporary and in September I'll feel better.

Hang in there!

whatever normal is. I deal with anxiety issues - that constant fight-or-flight response to some unseen danger. Typically there's nothing there, but something has triggered those impulses, much like a dog trained to respond to stimuli. I do take medication, and I have had enough therapy over the years to be aware of these impulses and why they exist. But they never fully go away, and they typically occur during acutely stressful moments.

I don't know what's happening in your life at the moment: How is your job? Your family life? Etc.? Is there anything that may have triggered your current episode? If you can find that moment then you may be able to put it into perspective.

And keep talking to us!

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~Writer~

at least half anxiety...I have incredible performance anxiety.

as in am I doing the job well, am I gonna get fired, not stage fright.

every time I put in for a job, I have total angst about the resume and the application...what is the right thing? Will they even read it? Will they call me?
cheez. I hate looking for work.

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