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As some here may know, I'm arthritic, and have had pain and other symptoms for years (I had my first total knee replacement at the ripe old age of 42, my second one five years later). The disease is throughout my body, and as any arthritic can tell you, the pain ain't a delightful thing to experience. As a result, I've been on pain medication for a few years now.
Nothing super powerful, but still potent and of lasting effect- my mainstay is Ultram (Tramadol). This is a synthetic opiate, and it stays within the blood stream for a while. It removes the pain, but there's a price- slowed reactions, tiredness (actually I get afternoon sleepiness if I stop and sit for even a few minutes), fuzzy thinking, and so on. I occasionally stop taking it for two or three days just to clear it from my system, but I usually substitute something else. Darvocet is available to me, and it's not nearly as long-lasting within the system. (It also gives me fantastic dreams, which is why I don't take it often- it's too tempting a drug for me!!!)
Well, last weekend I stopped taking ANYTHING. I anticipated the pain returning in three or four days, but I wanted to see just how addicted to this crap I really am, and it's been a long time since I've been fully awake and not trying to think through the fog.
The funny thing is, six days later the pain has yet to return, and this is the first day I actually feel really free of the effects of the drugs. My mind is clear, my natural sleep pattern has reestablished itself without difficulty, as has other bodily rhythms. It's amazing.
I'm sure the pain will return- I've never had any strength in my legs, and after walking my sister's dog yesterday my legs ached badly, but that's gone now. My lower back is involved, and it's a matter of time before something happens to strain it. My neck, elbow, hands, and feet are all arthritic, and it's only natural for them to give me pain. But not for the last week!
In the meantime I'm reacquainting myself with reality, and it's kinda nice to know I still have a functioning mind (when it's not stuffed full of cotton). I haven't been this self-aware for a long time!
I know it won't last, but right now I'm having a ball.
Sobriety- give it a chance. You may just discover how fun it can be!
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