I don't feel nearly as alone now

I just watched the Farrah Fawcett documentary and it's not that I'm sharing a pathway with a once famous star that matters but that she allowed me in, to see that I'm not alone. It's scary and isolating to face cancer and even though I know that many, many others have and do share this path, to see it documented with so much candor makes it feel just a little less isolating. I don't know how she had the guts to be so willing to let us see her go through all of it.

I have much better odds than she has but that terror and hope is so familiar. I hope I can face my journey with half as much bravery as she has. I'm such a wuss about pain and the idea of being sliced open like a fish scares the hell out of me. Even the MRI to try to see this invader a bit better scares me. Not actually the MRI but what it might show is just so fucking scary. I'm worried about my family too. I don't want to die and I don't want them to have to see me die of cancer.

My best to you. I will keep you in my prayers.

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But wanted to send you well wishes. It must be terrifying. I can't even imagine. Hugs to you & your family... :hug: :grouphug:

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You are not alone, let your family in. Hold them close.

good thoughts and best wishes to you Tavalon.

aA
kesha

Not to be pollyanna-ish about this, but as someone who lost their mother to cancer when I was a teenager, I've seen how, over the years, it has become far less of the almost automatic death sentence than it was when my mother had it. These days, of the people I've known with cancer,many more beat it than not, including both my father , and the woman he married after my mom died. I'm so glad to see you using the words "I have have much better odds"...Everyone reading this on DU is pulling for you and in some cases I'm sure ( including myself) , praying for you as well. So you're not alone here either(BTW, if any of this came off as condescending or something like that, please ,please accept my apologies--I only meant to offer words and thoughts of solidarity and hope for and with you).......abq e streeter

and with this thing being caught incidentally at a very early stage, the chance for a surgical cure is very good. Despite that, it is jarring in a way that I understood intellectually before but now get at a gut level.

Thank you for your kind, not condescending words and to all who posted here. I appreciate it.

My thoughts are with you. Accept the feelings as they come and don't apologize for them -- be easy on yourself. :hug: