Some people won't be coming back...ever...

Because their deaths took them from us.

We're coming up on the anniversary of Khashka's death...

I wrote this in his honor:

“Remembering you”

It’s been a year
Since you left us
The sharp pain is gone
But the lingering loss remains

I read the news today oh yeah
And I thought
These are stories you’ll never see
On events unknown to you

And I realized, freshly anew,
How much I miss you
How much it hurts
To have you gone

Your voice has disappeared
Even though I hear it still
Your thoughts are vanished
Not telling me things
I needed

And I cannot share my words with you
I cannot read my poems
And hear you say how much you liked
that one.

The pain is subdued these days
But every now and then
It stabs me
The way it’s doing now.

Rest in peace, my love...

Ciao, bello...


© MLC

thank you Peggy

And that was exactly what I intended ...

Thank you, sweetie...

:hug:

:(

Almost...

Next week, I think...June 30th was the date.

But I decided that tonight would be a more appropriate time to post it...

Thanks for coming by, sweetie...

:hug:

:hug:

:cry:

Right back atcha, sweetie...:hug:

:cry:

"but every now and then it stabs me"

I know that feeling well.

:hug:

I do too...

Thanks, sweetie...

Thanks for letting me rant in your thread...

:hug:

:cry:

You are a wonderful person

Ah, I'm glad you think so...

I do try.

I miss him so damn much, still...

:hug:

:cry:

I miss Khash too. He was always so supportive...

:hi:

There have been times when I wish I had an anteater handy...like when they invaded our kitchen, or when they kept getting under the hood of my car.

Did you get my message about teachers?

Our daughter is in music camp next week, and after that we will make a deciscion (i think)!

I always loved music camp when I was a kid.

Now I coach adults at a summer chamber music camp...I love it just as much as when I was participating as a kid!

You're welcome...

He was supportive...

:hug:

you probably didn't know him - he was before your time, but an amazing person

:cry:

He was so quick to scoop stories for LBN...Always on top of things. Sorely missed.

He and WillPitt both at the same time.

Despite all the DU parties I've had people would be surprised at how awkwardly shy I can be. I mean I almost cancelled that party from extreme panic attacks I was having but my therapist thought it would be good for me to do. Thankfully I had Ramsey helping me organize - what an amazing DUer - which btw she was the first DUer I met. (#2 and #3 - Skinner and Earl)

Shy, that is. I managed to cajole him into meeting a few others (5thGenDem and davsand) waaaaaaay back in 2002. Might have been the first "meetup" ever, I know we were the first ones he ever met.

He died right after I joined, Feb. 2005. That was a shock. And there were others too...Alarcojon, nostamj...I'm not sure of the spellings...

Terrible losses, all of them.

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And I always remember where I was at when I heard about Paul Wellstone dying. RBNYC and I were on our way to DC when Will Pitt (who was also heading down with a few DUers) called my phone. I gave the phone to RBNYC to answer (I was on the BW Parkway and driving ) - the way she reacted I thought Will was in a car accident. Instead it was finding out about Paul Wellstone.

DU can be so good and so sad. :(

Made me think of you and Maddy.

JJ was frantic trying to track you 2 down and make sure both of you were ok after Katrina. I mean I felt like I should call or something but I'm never good at those things but I was glad someone was reaching out.

connected to life when things were so dismal, when I didn't know how to go on. She let me know that people like you were out there pulling for me, willing to do what they could. I used the last of the bees wax skin softner you sent me not too long ago - thanks again for sending it.

DU can be so very good, there were so many who did help me in many different ways and I will always be so grateful. Just like so many came together for Andy.

But for all the good, the bad makes it hard to feel the safety it once offered. There is a huge disconnect, it isn't as it once was and I don't think it will ever be what it was.

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I was on vacation, and when I got back, I heard about his death. I was completely shocked; I'd thought he would survive.

Yes, DU can be so good, and so sad, all at the same time...

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He was always so positive. I looked up to him...Still do.

Of course...

I miss him, and his stories...

Thank you for reminding me...

:hug:

There have been some truly fine people pass through here, and touched us. RIP to far too many.

Ah, it's good to see you tonight...

Indeed, far too many.

I just wanted to bring things to a slightly better perspective...


How's Miss Ali? I hope she's healing well!


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I had a few, yet very humorous, interactions with K. Lovely person.


I also miss nostamj.

Ah, I miss them both as well...

Thank you!

:hug:

I know you do, sweetie...

He was one of a kind.

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My mother died almost 6 years ago and I still have those painful stabs at times. But they're more muted now. :hug:

I was so glad I had something to share...

My condolences on your loss.

She lives in your memory...

:hug:

Khashka knows.

I remember Khashka.

About those last lines in your poem, they remind me of a conversation that Khashka and I had one time.

I miss Khashka.

Ah, how much I hope you're right! It would be such a comfort to think that his spirit is still here, watching over us...

I'm glad I brought back that memory for you, sweetie...:hug:

I miss him too.

I'm glad you enjoyed my little work!

Thank you, sweetie...:hug:

you really have to seize the day. Hi Peg. :hi:

How true that is! And it's something we so often lose sight of...

Seize the day! :thumbsup:

Hi, sweetie!:hi:

:hug:

That is a wonderful poem and very true. I've had a couple of losses lately, this last part in particular has a great deal of resonance with me

The pain is subdued these days
But every now and then
It stabs me
The way it’s doing now

I'm so happy that this poem resonated with you...that it helped you!

Thank you, sweetie...

Please take care of yourself...:hug:

It is so sad when people die. :(

I wish you could have known him too...

For as young as he was, he was wise beyond his years...

An old soul in a young man's body...

It was a very sad loss, indeed.

:hug:

Thank you for posting this great banner!

He and I used to talk about how it would be if he were a moderator...

He always said they'd never want him...that he'd made too many errors and bad judgments...

Thank you...:hug:

well written....one of the best send-offs I've ever read

Ah, it could have used some more polishing...

I wrote it early in the day, and was going to post it next week, nearer to the actual date.

But the situation in here last night made me realize that it needed to show up then. So that's what I did...

I thank you, sweetie, for your very kind words...:hug:

Thanks, dear. It's important to remember.

When I look back at my arguably long time here, it puts things in perspective. Banning, schmanning, we lost real good people. I hope wherever they are they know we're here thinking about them.

Perspective was the thing I was hoping to get everyone to see...

I hope they know it, too...

Thank you, sweetie!

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