I went shooting for the first time with my BF, his dad, my dad, a coworker of my BFs dad and coworker's daughter. Those interested in that little story can see the link to Part 1 at the end of this post.
After we were done at the range we went to the BF's parent's house for some grillin' and chillin'. The rest of coworker's family was waiting for us there, so there were a lot more people than I expected (coworker is also a fundie and these people BREED! OMG!)Everyone was having a really good time. My dad, oddly, wasn't having any beers. I've seen him down a 12-pack like they were water but apparently he's decided he doesn't want to drink so much any more. No recent trips to the doctor or county lock-up so it's all him so good for him.
Anyway I kind of had my plans and I was really nervous. It must have shown because the BF kept asking me if everything was alright. Sometimes the best way to shut a guy up is just to smile and give him a kiss on the cheek.
When everyone is settled around the table I swallowed hard and spoke up:
"
, you know I love you."
Suddenly he looked horrified and worried.
"Um, yeah," he said...I think, I was so nervous. But I did notice his voice cracked.
You know, you practice these littel speeches in your head for a week and you still get dry-mouth and amnesiac-ish. That and holy crap there were a lot of strangers I never counted on being there. So I choked my way along.
"And I know you love me. I know you love me more than any man ever could. And I know you want us to have a life together so you want us to live together.
"I know that's what you want because I've made you feel that's the best you can ever hope for.
"But I want to say I don't want us to just live together.
"I've thought a lot about recently and I don't think that would be good for either if us."
I thought he was going to cry. I could see his eyes were so scared. So I had to hurry up.
"But I do love you and I can't imagine my life ever being complete with another man. But I know the only reason you won't ask me to marry you is because I've made you believe I have no room in my life for a marriage.
"I don't feel that way any more. I thought a lot about us and I want us to be together forever. I want to live with you but not as your girlfriend. I want to be your wife and I want you to be my husband."
He asked if I was asking him to marry me.
"Yeah, I guess I am."
He just threw his arms around me and held me for the longest time.
I think the people cheered for us but truth be told I was really paying a whole lot of attention. We just held each other and kissed. And then he did cry but I was kind puddled-up myself.
I figured his mom would be happy (she had blown her cool and smacked the crap out of him when he first said we were moving in together) and maybe say something extolling the virtues of marriage and condemning the sins of living together but it turns out the only thing she said was at the end of the night that shenever want any other woman for her little boy, and then she kissed my forehead. The BF--oops--excuse me--FIANCE's dad was just gushing the whole night. My dad went up to my fiance and said, "Good luck, you poor bastard."
Thanks dad.
We haven't really planned any details yet but we're getting there.
So, yeah...this unicorn is getting hitched.
PART 1, subtitled: "Hippy chick with a loaded gun" is here: http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=118x329232