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and I can't help but be upset about it. Here's the story- My brother has always been one of the most unstable people I know, and he's been in and out of jail his whole life. His terrible temper and meanness made my growing up years difficult, and he completely broke my parents' hearts. He was married once before, and he had a daughter, but he abandoned them both, which was probably better for them.
Last summer, I found my brother on Facebook and added him as a friend, and shortly after that his girlfriend. I should have known better. She almost immediately started lecturing me on how my brother is the way he is because apparently there was a family conspiracy to mess him up. None of us ever loved him like he deserved. It made me furious, because she has no idea what it was like growing up with him as a brother, but I was cautious in my replies. Then one day she posted that she was scared because she saw my brother lose his temper in a bar fight, so I wrote her and eventually I warned her that my brother can be dangerous, he's been in jail for domestic violence before, and that she should leave if she doesn't feel safe. So she called me a liar, showed the message to my brother, who really pulled the stops out in calling me names, and we were no longer FB friends.
I was angry, but I tried to get past it because I did try to warn her, and I can't do much else. This spring, she started sending messages to my mom, including the same accusations she had sent to me. Mom wouldn't defend herself, but I was beyond furious that this dim witted woman who had no idea what she was talking about felt like she had the right to send condescending and accusing messages to my mom. So I wrote the girlfriend telling her exactly what I thought of her, and suddenly my mom was no longer her FB friend.
A few days ago, I was looking through my FB sent messages searching for something I had once sent my sister, and I saw the gf's new profile picture, in which she is hugely pregnant and beaming mindlessly. My heart sank. My brother is crazy and he will abandon them eventually, as always, and now there is no chance his family will ever know this child. And the thought of a mix of my crazy brother and his stupid gf is sad. I said this to a friend, and he pointed out that genetics being what they are, there is no way of telling what the child would be like. And then I realized that if they have a smart and sane child, it's still a tragedy because of the parents.
I know it sounds like I have no sympathy for my brother, but I do. I don't think he can help but be destructive and a nightmare to deal with. I don't think he can help himself at all. But the massive, massive unpleasantness that goes with every interaction I have with him makes it hard for me to be totally sympathetic. I wish he could admit his psychological problems and go on medication, but he won't. I am very, very sorry that another child will have to start life as his child.
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