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When I saw her picture in the paper. So sad it was to speak of her murder.Sometimes this world is so evil I am at loss for words.I feel like killing whatever god or energy or being or whatever it is that made it be this way. It's so WRONG!
When I hear about all the trans-people killed, I fear for my trans freinds..Like Roxy Ravenstorm she's a heavy metal goth punk trans-woman,she is incredible rock guitarist and singer,she writes her own songs,about being transgender and love and the hurt,she pours her soul into music.. And she can play her axe like nobody's business too.She has been playing for 20 years..She is putting out CD's now and doing shows locally.And she is such a beautiful bird,the roxy star..IMHO.
Yet.. sometimes she tells me about her rides home on the bus How ass clown yo boys as she calls them, torment her.Sometimes when she walks home assholes where she lives pelt her with rocks.I fear for her.. and I fear for all of us.I really do.
I fear for every MtF,FtM and every gender queer in between..I fear for all the kinds of rainbows around and I hope the brilliant stars contained within our fragile lives, never go out,so the darkness never covers the Earth and kills the lavender dreams..
I hope for all the rainbow stars known and unknown , out or in,past, now and into the future,that they do get put out Like Gwen was. But I know it will not stop until society changes from the inside out. We have a long way to go. So I wish that Gwen's memory and her story become for those who sympathize and fear for each other,a combustible hydrogen fuel for our own fire strengthening each of our inner stars light, giving us all more dignity,fight and fury to better rail against the fear infested minds and closed hearts in this world killing us slowly in spirit mind and body...That dark that wants us all the rainbows in this world to be ONLY in duo-tone and the sun itself inside the human spirit to be one color,or else go dark ,forget what they are, and lie until they die in a closet,alone.
Being transgender in a hostile world is like being in middle school forever.. You got these dumb ass bullies with a middle school mentality dogging you,taunting harassing,you all your life.The game players,rumor mongers and bullshitters,they are everywhere. Why can't these bigots get over themselves and see past their goddamn insecurities and power trips,and let go of that stupid social conditioning and quit the trans-phobic bullshit enough to let a trans person simply exist as who they are,whatever it may be,in the same proximity without giving them shit.
I wish so bad straight and bully humanity would just stop,just leave us the fuck alone ,treat us like human beings,and let us be.
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