waiting for surgery. fun, fun.

oy vey. trying to trudge through the days until this fucking pain stops. having big fun with the whole pre-op crapola. they called me today to say that my nose swab came back positive for staph, so i get to put antibiotic ointment up my nose for 5 days. yumm. did my bloodwork today. always fun to get stuck.
the doc that did my pre-op physical was just freaked out. my regular doc has been sick, and couldn't get me in, even though i am waiting a month for this procedure. i have never seen a doc so jumpy. she called me, then she called my doc, trying to get out of it. i am thinking that her problem was that a ct showed some sort of lesion on my thyroid. it was on the edge of the view. i have to get an ultrasound tomorrow to check it out. but i just had an mri of a wider area, and i gotta think it is just some bogie. maybe she didn't want to give me the bad news. what a trip.
anyway, 14 more days. only a couple more tests. trying to keep the anxiety tamped down. fun, fun, fun.

As for the staph, don't worry about it. I always ASSume I've been colonized by staph, even the resistant staph, so I always put Bacitracin up my nose for a few days before any surgery. It worked for my corneal transplant and when I left nursing, we were doing it for most of our preop heart patients. It doesn't cost much and it won't hurt you.

You should have told the doc that you'd like to handle one disaster at a time, please, and save the thyroid investigation until after you were out of hideous, screaming pain.

I'm glad you're being scheduled so quickly. You've been through a long, miserable slog.

called my actual doc and left a message to respond to my email. thank you for the nudge. it is just not gonna help the situation to get ground down with this pain. it already has my bp up there. frustration isn't helping that, either.
so fucking hard, i hate to have to have anyone take care of me. but more than that, i hate to NOT have anyone taking care of me when i need it. grrrr.
thanks for always being there, warpy.

well, better than nothing.
and the ultrasound showed the bogie, also. i assume when there is a black spot, and the tech paints it bright blue, there is something there. well, they will be right there. i suppose i get a biopsy, too. goodie.
told the nurse when she called about the meds that i wanted all my results posted to my online chart, that i know there was a spot, and i want to look at the tests. we'll see. this flappin' in the breeze really sucks. these people.

edited to say- i love these techs. i don't usually bug them, although they almost always will tell you if they see nothing. so when they don't, i assume. the US tech left to get the radiologists ok, and left a review screen up. see the pretty blue dot? ugh.

and the only one allowed to touch it is the radiologist. S/he is the one who has to decide if it's something real or a defect in the film, itself. My guess is that you will have repeat studies of your thyroid done, if that's where it is.

In the meantime T-3 will help get you through the next couple of weeks. It is mild enough that it won't interfere with pain control after surgery, when they'll undoubtedly offer something with a little more of a wallop. The main side effect is nausea, something you can get used to. I did.

i got a feeling this radiologist is looking back at the mri that didn't pick it up. and i kinda figured that a black spot is better than a white spot.

and yeah, t3 will probably do it. i'm almost finished with the project i am working on. after that it's- curl up with a good book and count the days. oy vey.