how it feels...

Excerpt from a letter by Lord-of-the-Rings-man J.R.R. Tolkien to his son Christopher, 10 April 1944:

I sometimes feel appalled at the thought of the sum total of human misery all over the world at the present moment: The millions parted, fretting, wasting in unprofitable days -- quite apart from torture, pain, death, bereavement, injustice. If anguish were visible, almost the whole of this benighted planet would be enveloped in a dense dark vapor, shrouded from the amazed vision of the heavens! And the products of it all will be mainly evil -- historically considered. But the historic version is, of course, not the only one. All things and all deeds have a value in themselves, apart from their 'causes' and 'effects'. No man can estimate what is really happening sub specie aeternitatis . All we do know, and that to a large extent by direct experience, is that evil labors with vast power and perpetual success -- in vain: preparing always the soil for unexpected good to sprout in.

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And it appears the good sprouts that come from such evil soil are cut down,trampled and devoured too soon,crushed before they can grow into a sapling and bloom in this cold ignorant hate soaked,sour..heartbreaking world...