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No, not on you all here on DU.
My wife was gonna take my daughter to her mom's tonight to trick-or-treat, but has been having dizzy spells and been feeling fatigued a lot of late. Her mom was disappointed of course, and lectured her about getting better medical care (the wife did walk 4 freaking blocks with daughter and her best friend while I passed out candy).
Hello people - Jesus, don't you listen??? She has Parkinson's, and she is showing a lot of signs of it ya know, and she is not too far advanced yet for Sinemet, so she is on Amantadine for her fatigue. But those meds, well they can fuck you up in ways you refuse to understand so she tries not to take them too much.
Hey - just go to the Dr and they will make it all better, give you meds and wow you are all ok.
Nope. And you just don't fucking get it, and it is pissing me off. Cause the one thing my wife does not need right now is a damned guilt trip. She feels bad enough as it is ok? And I do as well, because while she is not able to do the many things she wants to do (cleaning, etc) she relies on me to do them, and I suck at em - but damn I try.
So yeah, she can take the meds she has - but they make her paranoid, sometimes see things, etc - and she would rather be tired than freaked out. She is a good woman - a wonderful mother, and an excellent wife (not to mention a superb cook). And while I am standing behind her, you - her own damned family - are busy making her feel ashamed.
I give up. I gave up a life, career, and dreams to move here for her and so you could be close to her - and all you are doing is making her feel bad about herself.
Well let me tell you - she is a damned fine woman. Beautiful, smart, awesome in ways I won't mention here, and damned determined to fight this. And you are kicking her ass because she does not have some Dr that makes it all better for her.
Well, wake up people - she ain't gonna get over this like some damned cold.
Sometimes, I feel so damned alone in all this. And I cannot imagine how my wife feels.
I love you hun, just had to rant for you after what you told me tonight. It may not get better, but you know I got your back.
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