My last nerve is now gone.

I went through Hugo and I was 60 miles inland. That was bad enough.I watched what Camille did.It seems like everything has been running at a brazillion rpms. The news treats everything as if the end of the known world is coming or at least change in the next hour. I know that is what they want to do for ratings. I watch Nascar to calm down. Add to that the feeling of helplessness at times.I think that a lot of posts are not only real concerns, but also a way to make people fell connected and in control of something. The campaign isn't going right; the hurricanes will destroy who knows what; the economy is in meltdown; Bushco is planning some evil thing to take advatage of this diversion; we are daring the Russians in Georgia, Iraq...And I have been the one preaching about trying not to ride the rollercoaster. Well, the animal cruelty did it. The circuits overloaded that nerve and I'm just chilling now. It's not a breakdown. It's just an acceptance that right NOW there is nothing I can do about any of it but hope for the best. I usually give myself a test.

1-Can I do anything about it now? Yes. then do it. No. Then calm down and plan what can be done or just chill.

Maybe. Look fool, shit or get off the pot. Go to yes or no now!

Thank you for your forebearance with this post. I am new, and I know I can get on nerves. DU has been a great place for me.

I can haz pankaz on myz hedz. Cuz I haz noe ideaz whatz talk about. In wat rezpkt Charliez?:hi::beer:

Edit: What I need are some of those Baptists to knock on my door and ask me I believe in God? That would actually be fun.

:toast:

and we'll all be here tomorrow to get after it again! :)

That's just a horrible storm. 100+ MPH gusts in downtown Houston. Huge Storm Surges along the coast. 100 billion in damages. Period.

:hug:

I just have peace and good vibes coming your way.

I've prayed and asked all of my dearly departed family members to put a guiding hand on the shoulders of those who are in distress, regardless of their situation.

Here on DU, we may not all pray to any or the same god, but there is no shortage of caring or good thoughts or positive vibes coming the way of those that need them.

Peace

kthaxbai

I know the people on the Gulf are waaaaaaaaaay in trouble. I am forwarding any vibes I get.

I gave up on control. I have no expectations,no hopes.I admit I don't control shit in this world.I can tell myself I am in control of how I REACT to the shit storm, but sometimes even that fails. No use guilt tripping over myself on top of it.
YES, the world is dying before our very eyes.. Everything is contaminated.The fascists and pigs in power are most likely going to try to fuck us over,and you know what? So the fuck what.

I can still write my heart out.Some will hear it,some will sneer,some will take it to heart.
I don't care anymore because this world does not take commands from me..This world has nothing in it for me.Never did.

I will die one day.So will everyone else.
So I care, to ease the suffering around me while I exist but I realize I cannot predict,control or even balance my life in the chaos that reality IS all the time,or even some of the time sometimes.. I let it all GO.
I can care and give without expecting a result or return.I get hurt,I say stupid shit,I get pissed,whatever.
So I don't care what happens anymore to the point I worry about things in the way that would add to my torment past a certain point.Yes I rant, but the rant is me speaking my truth.Than I let it go.It is only a matter of time before it is my turn to get a shit pie in my face,it has happened before,so it will happen again and I am lucky if I can manage to close my eyes before it hits.

I can do or say what I think is right at the time and I let it go.That's it.I live the best I can for the moment I am in,with all it's conditions and situations,my integrity to myself is what matters to me,for in ten minutes my heart may stop. (probably not but one can hope).


I love what I love while I can,hate what I hate,I express what I can,I say my truth in my own voice,Say or do what I think matters,and I live anyway,because ultimately I know I own nothing,not even this flesh I live through. The unknown is unknown.So why be scared of it,it will come to pass as it will do regardless of me.

Just be true to yourself,regardless of this world,walk tall in the face of this mess,as best as you can,fight, use your voice,express it, love the one you are with, and care. BUT at the same time be willing to accept that it might all go to hell despite everyone's best efforts.

If hell is where reality insists on going, it will go there.You will either be there to face the shit storm and deal with that when that moment arrives or not.Just be true to what your inner knowing is,stand by what matters to YOU, be what you are,truly, whatever it is,and ,share it and be willing to tell the world to fuck off too..

It will change, respond to you, or not.At least you did your part by speaking truth to power and truth to yourself in this world.That's all any of us can do. Life isn't easy or a game,it hurts often but each person that lives true to what they are can at least for one moment change something,what changes I dunno,but why not?..The alternative to that doesn't look much better and it feels even worse.
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Quoted from the matrix

Why, Mr. Anderson ? Why do you do it ? Why get up ? Why keep fighting ? Do you believe you're fighting for something ? For more than your survival ? Can you tell me what it is ? Do you even know ? Is it freedom ? Or truth ? Perhaps peace ? Yes ? No ? Could it be for love ? Illusions, Mr. Anderson. Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying desperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose.
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Because I want to...and I can,that's why.I don't need any justification to be.

...you have been through a lot
:yoiks:

That took them all except the one. I could sit at my desk and not move a muscle if a door was slammed right behind me.

:evilgrin:


You try, and that matters more than you know. :toast::hi:

Oh, missed the Baptist part somehow. I didn't mean to be mean, but right after the theft of 2004 some Baptists came to my door. Strong looking young men. They were smiling and started talking, when I interrupted them sweetly, of course, "Did you vote for bush?" I smiled. "Why yes we did!" "Then get the hell off my porch, off my property and go get your asses to Iraq!"

It seemed all of my frustration until then came roaring out at those grinning sheep. It kind of felt good and I am normally fairly polite and respectful of others.

Those boys beat feet and I haven't seen them since. :)

May you be blessed with a knock at the door when you most need it! :toast:

Sometimes I look like the Energizer Post Bunny. I don't even realize it at times.:hi:

I added to the other post as you answered. :)

Hang in there! :hug:

:rofl:

:spank:

oh wait, that's right! it's not your fault! you don't have that sort of power!

hmm, maybe some distance from information overload will help give you some perspective to relax. ;)
so obey your smilies and have a beer and chill. ride the roller coaster and throw up your hands to catch some air. it's gonna be a wild ride. whee!

:toast: :beer:

My nerves are shot, too. And when animals are involved, I'm sure to go over the edge. :hug:

you deserve it

:hug:

:rofl:

Hey! Listen.

If you weren't intact as a thinking, caring human being,...you wouldn't be "feeling" any of those frustrations.

Be thankful (I AM) that you are STILL a thinking and caring human being!!!!

Being fully human may not be easy but it is certainly a journey of challenges that never ends. What better, more fulfilling life to live than one that is a journey of challenges?

:shrug:

You're fine. When you STOP feeling then, you should drink,...a LOT! :hug: