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Edited on Thu Jan-08-09 06:23 PM by Journalgrrl
The headline on Yahoo front page was glaring me in the face as I returned from running the gauntlet to get my medi-CAL re-instated, and apply for aid & food stamps... the humiliation, paperwork, etc is something I have endured for my entire adult life it seems...
I float along for a while working my ass off and then crash again or get laid off or can't sustain single parenting with all the hours and still keep us afloat... so we sink, and my depression takes over, and then I am back where I started -
Begging for Alms
(snip) WASHINGTON – President-elect Barack Obama implored Congress to "act boldly and act now" on Thursday to fix an economy growing perilously weaker, ...(snip)
you know, what does it look like for things to get worse? I keep praying that the job I am holding out for or the training program I so desperately need will come through...meanwhile I just want to give up
just crawl under the covers and wait till 2012 and come out like the groundhog and see if it is any better Too bad I have kids to take care of, too..I'd be either dead or on the streets without them
I keep trying to kep a stiff upper lip and hold on to the gratitude of the things I *DO* have...like a warm house, a car, love of my kids, etc...but I feel weaker toay than i have in a long time and the runaround for cash aid (which I can't even get an INTAKE interview until the 27th...so no help until february for sure...) it's just more than I can muster today
I feel like a failure and I want to give up, but can't so tonight a good cry and a bath and tomorrow I suck it up and get back on the horse
happy new fucking year (ha, that was my 39th bday, and I haven't got my shit together YET)
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