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I'm an activist from wa-a-a-a-a-a-ay back. Seen a lot of peoples' movements.
And when the harpie of ego gets going wild
in a movement, which, by definition, has been running on emotion and adrenalin, and has little structure, tradition and internal controls
and in which activists often become exhausted and fall prey to the delusion that "it's all up to me,"
and when there is, of course, never enough money
and a movement which, also by definition, is challenging great entrenched power, and therefore incurs many dangers (the threat of physical violence, death threats, the threat of moles and agents provocateur),
there is nothing like the personal destructiveness that can occur among the people involved.
When this happens, recognize the harpie. She is the ancient Greek spirit of discord. There is no satisfying her. No dispute can ever be resolved in her presence.
She needs to be ceremonially grounded and dissolved back to earth.
And sometimes the only way to do that is to WALK AWAY.
To deny the spirit of discord any human flesh to sink her talons into.
To not be there.
None of the piddling amounts of money that activists fight over mean anything. They are like the property in a divorce, or the property in a will that siblings fight over.
They mean that love is gone.
A peoples' movement can be very beautiful. It can be magical. It is born of that wonderful thing, consensus. A new idea. An idea whose time has come. And riding that wave of the human will to change evil into good can be a great high. And when the swirl of change has gone out from you and your little group of humans to everyone, it can leave you a limp rag. You need rest. You need to collect yourself. You need a sweat lodge. You need a way to move on.
That's when the harpie strikes.
I've seen it time and time and time again. What is happening is that the individual ego, which has been transcended by this collective idea, reasserts itself, and suddenly wants...recognition, compensation, power...maybe in the form of a book deal, control of the narrative of the group, media attention, control of funds, control of some object--a computer, the donor list, an office, a desk, it can be anything. The ego latches onto ANYTHING to restore the individual's sense of self-worth, after having been swept up in the collective will of a movement. And thinking "it's all up to me" is typical. If it's "all up to me," then others should recognize my right to control this...whatever it is... the object in dispute; or, the reverse--others have misused whatever it is (same thing--'others are petty and bad' and 'it's all up to me to carry the spirit of the movement').
WALK AWAY!
Walk away NOW!
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