You'll hear a lot here.

We do what we can, what we are able to do.

"Want me to push?, use my connections on a state level in a Rpub state and go?" What is the decision under consideration here? To get back into the field, or something else entirely? Sue?

I'm sorry. I know this must be really a really difficult time for you after what that family did. I think we just need to know what you think are your options.

We're here to support you whatever you decide, Koz. You're one of the good guys.

and I think you are right,
I believe my soul has made up its mind. Now my heart,mind, and Mrs, and daughter k ,need to follow,,

I know what I want to do,,but just working in the field damn near cost me my family,, stepping bigger into the dodo could be worse.

Koz

All of us here wish the best for you, and for all the lives you have touched and could touch.

laws, or, I'm not sure what you mean by "go"?

It's difficult, wanting the best for residents and finding guardians not acting in what you think is their best interests. Trying to balance everything, being on call always, trying to find and keep decent people for the next level down to delegate to because trying to do it all =burnout.

Best wishes, pm if you want to talk as I've been involved as an ancillary health care person with the same clients but across the country.

Regarding the boy, you have been away for several months. Were there changes in the boy's condition that you may not be aware of?

I've been where you are several times in my life both personally and professionally and when the going has been the most difficult, I dust off the following quotes. One, I found myself and one was given to me by a close friend:

If you're like me, more often than not you fall into that last category of which Shakespeare speaks. It's a hard role to fill, but, you've already proven you can do it.

I would say you're already looking back from what you've written. You have made a big impact. Think of how many lives you've touched and improved in ways beyond measure.

He was one of the best psychologists I've ever known. He was a good father, but growing up I thought the normal work week was 6 1/2 days a week and ran from 7:00am to 11:00pm. We almost always had a foster living with us, and one with issues.

But when he celebrated his 90th birthday, he had about 50 people fly in from all over the country to be with him and help him celebrate and tell him how he had changed their lives.

It is damnably hard on you and on your family to be really, really good at what you do and to know that you are making a positive difference in people's lives.

As others have said, it seems that you know what you want, instead you are questioning if you have the energy to what you feel you need to do and, at the same time, take care of your family. Only you can answer that question. But regardless of what you decide, we here on DU will be here to support your decision.

Best wishes and good luck!

you earned the right to go home and give of yourself to your own family.

That you have to put on your own oxygen mask first ...

Make certain that you are giving yourself enough care, before you take on another battle, knowing the outcome may be uncertain and the costs unknown.