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Siwsan

(26,287 posts)
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 10:57 AM Dec 2019

I just found out the old neighborhood child molester has died.

And, yes, I was one of his targets. He was the son of a local bank president, and pretty much got away with everything, despite his behavior finally being reported to a parent. It seemed that the only person he COULDN'T threaten and intimidate was the one girl who couldn't hear his threats, because she was deaf. After that, the family moved and, as far as I know, he was never held to any account. In today's world, I have no doubt all of the children, in the neighborhood, would have been questioned. Unfortunately, back then, it seems our parents would rather not confront reality.

He was a vile, horrible individual who affected and damaged so many lives, both male and female, of the young people in our neighborhood. I have no idea what kind of an adult he became, but the notification I saw indicated there would be no memorial service, of any kind, for him.

My chest feels tight and I'm having a little trouble drawing deep breath, but I'm hoping that, once I digest this news, I can FINALLY let go of the damage, and the anxiety his cruelty triggered.

Thanks for letting me vent.

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I just found out the old neighborhood child molester has died. (Original Post) Siwsan Dec 2019 OP
Take care. Borchkins Dec 2019 #1
Take all the time you need (((hugs))) samnsara Dec 2019 #2
.... dewsgirl Dec 2019 #3
I hope this helps you heal. Aristus Dec 2019 #4
What a fucking society that allows this to go on without justice for the victims. Baitball Blogger Dec 2019 #5
Now the reallly hard part: you got to leave him in the dust. There's special places in hell ... marble falls Dec 2019 #6
Find where he's buried and send him to hell with a fresh steamy shit. NightWatcher Dec 2019 #7
... NurseJackie Dec 2019 #8
I'm so sorry for the anxiety this is causing you, Siwsan. smirkymonkey Dec 2019 #9
I'm making up some comfort food Siwsan Dec 2019 #18
I am so very sorry you and so many others had your childhood and beyond Tanuki Dec 2019 #10
The DU community has gotten me through a lot of rough times, over the past few years Siwsan Dec 2019 #17
I'm so sorry that happened to you. People like him always prey on the CaptYossarian Dec 2019 #11
slow, deep breaths onethatcares Dec 2019 #12
I had the exact same thought Siwsan Dec 2019 #16
A vile piece of garbage. nt Chalco Dec 2019 #13
I have empathy and sympathy for you. And triumph. WestLosAngelesGal Dec 2019 #14
The way his sister posted about his death seemed so telling Siwsan Dec 2019 #15
This Hekate Dec 2019 #19

marble falls

(57,145 posts)
6. Now the reallly hard part: you got to leave him in the dust. There's special places in hell ...
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 11:17 AM
Dec 2019

these people.

Man that had to be a tough thing to deal with for all you children in that community. He stayed there all this time. Whoa.

NightWatcher

(39,343 posts)
7. Find where he's buried and send him to hell with a fresh steamy shit.
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 11:18 AM
Dec 2019

To call it cathartic is an understatement.

 

smirkymonkey

(63,221 posts)
9. I'm so sorry for the anxiety this is causing you, Siwsan.
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 01:37 PM
Dec 2019

Please take care of yourself and know that he is gone forever and that you are strong. Treat and pamper yourself like you would for a dear friend.

Siwsan

(26,287 posts)
18. I'm making up some comfort food
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 02:15 PM
Dec 2019

and poured myself a glass of wine. I figure that the sun is over the yardarm SOMEWHERE on the planet.

He is facing his Karma, and I'm facing some very extra cheesy potatoes au gratin with smoked sausage and sweet onion.

Tanuki

(14,920 posts)
10. I am so very sorry you and so many others had your childhood and beyond
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 01:41 PM
Dec 2019

blighted by this horrible, damaged person. I wish you peace and continued healing. Thank you for trusting us and letting us know. You have a huge community of well-wishers here.

Siwsan

(26,287 posts)
17. The DU community has gotten me through a lot of rough times, over the past few years
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 02:12 PM
Dec 2019

Five family deaths and the loss of my sweet little tortie, Boudicca, for starters. I always knew, no matter what time of day or night, someone would read and understand the pain and the loss.

CaptYossarian

(6,448 posts)
11. I'm so sorry that happened to you. People like him always prey on the
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 01:42 PM
Dec 2019

most vulnerable. He stole your childhood and innocence--and the same for all those other children.

I hope this ends your suffering. My thoughts are with you.

Siwsan

(26,287 posts)
16. I had the exact same thought
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 02:10 PM
Dec 2019

I could go years without thinking about him, in particular, and then something would trigger a memory.

WestLosAngelesGal

(268 posts)
14. I have empathy and sympathy for you. And triumph.
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 01:55 PM
Dec 2019

Once in a while, I look at the tombstone of my molester on FindaGrave.com just to reassure myself that he can't hurt me, my sister, or my cousins ever again.

Siwsan

(26,287 posts)
15. The way his sister posted about his death seemed so telling
Thu Dec 12, 2019, 02:08 PM
Dec 2019

Just that he died. Not when. Not where. Not a word about sadness or grief. Just the fact that he died and there would be no service. So cut an dry.

Maybe I'm still deeply grieving losing my sister, 4 years ago, but I still feel a pinch of grief, every single day. Same about the brother I lost, in 1976. I can't help but express emotion, every time I think, talk or write about them.

And, maybe believing he died as a reviled, unloved person makes me feel better. Not proud of that, but it is what it is, and I think most people, who have found themselves in the same situation, will agree.

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