Visceral, upsetting Kurt Eichenwald Twitter thead re: Tara Reade

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This is going to be an ugly, angry thread. It's going to be about rape, written by someone who was violently raped in the early 1980s.

Tara Reade is a liar. Im now certain of that beyond a reasonable doubt. Her attention seeking or corrupt performance has demeaned people who../1

...have been actual victims. The willingness of Bernie Bros and Republicans and Russians demonstrates that this vicious, violent crime to be just something to exploit as a political tactic. gave this a lot of time, absorbing each new detail. I listened. I waited. NOW I am.../2

...angry as hell. These people keep pushing those like me back into our trauma by lying and games playing. For every Tara, there will be a million actual victims who will not come forward because she will have undermined all credibility....
...this is different than Ford - it is not "what party are they attacking? OK, that decides who I believe." I have never ever ever believed this "If someone accuses, believe them" crap. If someone accuses, *respect* them, listen, wait. But don't let frauds like Tara do this.../3

...why did I reach the end today? I read her latest change in her story. This one is the one that broke it. She is a fraud. Not only should she be ignored in perpetuity, she should be condemned and - if she actually filed a police report recently - arrest her.

Here's why../4

...as I said, this will be ugly. If descriptions of post-rape reality is too uncomfortable for you, stop reading here. I know my experiences are similar to those of other victims, and the complete opposite of Tara's.

If you are ok with continuing, read on.../5

...I was raped post seizure, while unconscious, in the early 1980s. Do I remember the exact date? No. That is not unusual. Things you see and feel and do remain forever, even with someone like me with severe memory problems. Markers like dates don't.

I remember the blood..../6

...I remember where it was, what each rivulet or blotch or puddle looked like. I remember trying desperately to wash it off. I remember being unable to cry. I remember my fear, my not wanting to tell anyone. I remember the beach towel I used to dry off and its pattern/colors.../7

...I remember the shapes of paint peeling on the ceiling of the room I was in. I remember deciding that, because the bleeding would not stop, I needed to take a cab to the hospital.

The memories stop. They resume again in the emergency room. I remember what the drape around../8

...my cubicle (if that's what its called) looked like. I remember the smock and appearance of my nurse. I remember how many doctors came to see me - first two of apparent age differences I remember, then a second one. I remember them pleading with me to file a police report.../9

..I remember shutting down. I remember a chair in the cubicle. I remember the last doctor trying to tell me about how I should be worried about STDs. I shut down, but I know he talked about AIDS. I remember leaving against everyone's request. I dont remember traveling. I.../10

...remember being home. I remember sleeping on the floor. I remember staring at the ceiling. I remember the next day going to the kitchen to get a garbage bag and putting everything bloody into it. I remember walking outside, hoping no one would see me and ask what was in.../11

...the bag (yes, that was irrational). I remember what the garbage can looked like. I remember fearing someone would open the garbage can and the bag, see all the blood-stained stuff and call the police. I remember I remember I remember. I remember this many nights of my..../12

...life in my sleep. I remember breaking down in tears, well into my 50s, about an attack that happened in my early 20s.

I discussing with counselors, and being told how my reactions - both at the time and in the decades since - were exactly how sexual assault victims react../13

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This is all he has so far. It's brutal stuff but it rings true. Survivors of sexual assault usually have every detail burned into their memory, unlike Tara Reade. They don't keep changing their stories. I believe Joe.