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Doing all the things that reinforce well being cost you money,we have a shitty transport system so if you want to see a Friend you pay a cab it takes a big chunk of your budget if you eat out it is impossible,i live in a low income place i pay half on rent,after i pay half on utilities i have about 200 bux get cat food,flea meds, litter tp,detergent,and med co pays etc,it leaves me with 50 bux. To get out of this Sisyphean shithole in the styx to civilization,id have to blow at least 30 bux there is an 8 dollar bridge to cross too,then spend more to get there and even more to get back. Cant afford it.
Cant afford a car if someone even gave me one for free.,

I carry my groceries home my arms ache my back hurts i stop at every damn driveway to rest as rednecks in big trucks speed past,i hate it. Then food stamps dont stretch much as the cost of food has gone insane. I find they sold these apartments to some investor asshole and the first thing this so called investor does is raise rent 20 bux.

Poverty is torture its not a motive to work it just makes me want to kill myself, but i wont unless at minimum 1 rich pig 1 % asshole goes with me,i would prefer all of them die but I'm not a good shot.
And its near the end of the month the cat litter needs changing,but i cant go out and get any,i have to arrange a ride and buy it i have no ride or$$$ .The fringe is almost empty and I'm so lonely and feel so pissed and powerless it hurts,having pt sd and depression does not help. I wish so bad i could own my place pay the fucker off,live in a nice area with good transportation nearby things i need,and have enough to cover cat litter,emergency meads or buy something nice or even gasp,go out and have fun with a Friend and eat out. Get my tooth yanked,afford what i need and a little of what i want. Just some,enough to feel stable safe and feel like I'm not always stressing out.