Good luck.

Time to heal

It is never easy losing a friend and a year ago I lost someone whom I considered to be one of those people who come into your life and forever changes it. It was partially my fault too. Not a day goes by when I am not thinking of her & though I've tried reaching out to say I'm sorry, I'm blocked by every way and means possible.

Sometimes things just need time to heal, for the heat to turn down and for healing to begin. Sometimes we just need to think and need a break from things, the pressure, the drama, the stress.

I truly hope at some point you can fix things with your friend and enjoy the very things once again which made you friends to begin with.

Namaste.

But right now it's just time to heal. Sadly somewhere along the line my friend became somebody else.

I thought would have given their last breath for me, and vice versa. There came a point where I just couldn’t do it anymore, the relationship was too toxic for me and, as insurmountable as it seemed, after the “break up” I felt such a heavy load had been lifted from my soul.
Have to admit it tho, it was extremely sad and there was a certain type of grieving. But I can now look back and remember the life lessons I learned along the way with this friend....and my heart is at peace.
With time...yours will be at peace as well...

I'm very sad that I lost her as a friend but the same time I feel like I'm free. I'm just extremely mixed on it all. I don't know how people become so toxic.

That means you’re human without toxicity, at least that’s my opinion and experience. As with any type of loss, it takes time....admitting these feelings helps ease the letting go process and those feelings will diminish with each day. Trust me...just take it a day, hour, minute at a time. You’ve got this...and du for support.

Feel more at home than anywhere else. But today feels weird. I'm not sure why but it feels weird.

You may just run the gamut of emotions, it’s all usual and to be expected. You’ll adjust, the void will be filled, and you’ll find your peace and happiness again.
Just let it go....

Because I feel like I had to be at a certain standard to be somebody's friend like hers and now that I'm not I feel like a ton of weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I mean now I'm looking into doing art

Go for it!

Think I'll find one I can enjoy. Huge inspiration from Bob Ross

we here, on du, would love to see what you create!

Classes for oil painting run about 150 dollars which works for me. 8 weeks to learn.

To have fun!

It's distressing to have relationships crumble, especially if they've been developed over many years. So many things happen in our lives and they're intertwined with the people who are close to us. When one of them is gone, for whatever reasons, our memories are still infused with their presence in our lives.

I'm sorry for your lost friendship. I had a very good buddy with whom I had shred many adventures and good times. Most amazingly, and terribly sadly, I ended the friendship after he failed to repay a $275 loan! He gave up a friendship over such a small amount! If he had simply said he couldn't repay me, I would have dropped it. Instead, he argued that he didn't have an obligation to repay me. I just walked away and that was that.

We are survivors and I hope for good experiences for you, vercetti2021! "The future looks bright."

End of friendship, a good friendship over money? It sounds like his loss for sure. I'm sorry that happened to you. Today just feels very weird and I don't know what's going to happen. It does stink when you have a romantic interest in friends like that too but you know how fate works. I just wonder if this person was never meant to be in my life long-term. But here's to better days hopefully.

(Been there)

Feels like a weight has been lifted up off me. Toxic people are just not worth keeping