Getting treated that way is just awful, even if it did piss you out of your depressed feeling.

I really can't help except to give you this:

I wish I could really help.

Hospice was amazing helpful to me when my husband died. They provided a year of grief
counseling at no charge. You might check with your local hospice for support at such a
difficult time. Sending you loving thoughts.

when I was caring for my mom. A counselor came once a month and it was really nice to talk to some one who got how hard it was.

You were wanting help and comfort on the degenerative diseases that are slowly taking your mom away from you, and also, just to pump up your spirits and energy. What a shame, but like you said, it revitalized you in a sense by getting you pissed off.

I too, would never go to such an organization, for I think they are tainted already, and will always think that there an ulterior motive in them 'helping' you/others. I don't trust them. I've already had have experience w/ a religious org. that my neighbors was going to donate quite a bit of their land to, when they passed on. When they had to sell a portion of the property to cover her nursing home expenses (her husband had already passed and the wife went to live w/ her daughter), the religious organization had a hissy fit.

In the end the org. ended up w/ nothing! The manner in which they treated her, especially in her situation in the nursing home/daughter's home was pathetic.

Wishing you the best, keep your spirits up and please keep us on DU up to speed on you and your Mom...