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My good friend of 35 years had to put his old cat down yesterday afternoon-
Vaska was a rescue - saved from the gas chamber multiple times because the staff at the pound just loved him. Mickey got him a little over a year and a half ago. The vet said he was old but really couldn't say how old.
We had taken care of Vaska for days at a time when Mickey was out of town. He'd come and chill with our two cats, ever the elderly statesman, not falling for Chester's antics....
We loved him, too.
SO THEN:
Last NIGHT my beautiful Savannah and I went to the 50th birthday party of one of her best friends here in town and when we get there, the place is stunning - her husband had the place TOTALLY covered in outrageous food and libation. It looked like a scene from a King Arthur movie - not in terms of costume but the amazing spread.
We're there about 15 minutes and we hear the 16 year old daughter scream from the basement like she is literally on fire. I thought someone had fallen on their little dog - until I heard someone holler "Dial 911"
I charged into the basement and saw the husband face down on the floor - in a pool of blood - he'd broken his nose in a fall.
I knelt beside him and could not hear any breath so two of the other guys and I turned him over - they began chest compressions and I gave the mouth to mouth.
Savannah had dialed 911 and we kept at him for the 15 minutes it took the paramedics arrived.
They took over and I left the basement. As I started up the stairs, out of breath, one of the guests touched my arm and whispered "You need to wash the blood off your face...."
So I went up to the kitchen and washed up...Had a big drink of vodka and when they wheeled him out of the house towards the ER I got some bleach and went down to clean the blood off the floor.
He didn't make it. He was dead right after he hit the floor, according to the ER doctors. Heart attack.
We were told that there was no saving him.
It's not the first time I've had another man's blood in my mouth during CPR and not the first time I've had to use Purex and a scrub brush to remove blood from a concrete floor -
I got a little of the ptsd from the old days and my previous experience in this.
I believe it's with me tonight. Hold your loved ones close. Hold fast.
Thanks for letting me share this with you all.
Sekhmets Daughter
(7,515 posts)losing a friend is tough enough, losing one in such a way must be so painful. May you find strength and peace quickly.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)In_The_Wind
(72,300 posts)I'm so sorry about everything you experienced yesterday.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Thanks for the hugs...
In_The_Wind
(72,300 posts)RebelOne
(30,947 posts)So sorry you had to go through that and so sorry that your friend did not make it.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)During emergencies like this I am completely focused and extremely calm. Been that way forever.
Living the day to day stuff has driven me completely insane, but if you've been hurt or are being threatened, I'm your guy.
I was fine until a couple hours after we got home when the shock or whatever it is wore off and then I got the shakes and started crying.
I am grateful for one thing:
That he was surrounded by his and her families and, so, surrounded by love.
And no one can ask for more than that.
bluedigger
(17,087 posts)Condolences on the loss of your friend. They were lucky to have you there.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Paulie
(8,462 posts)fizzgig
(24,146 posts)i am so sorry
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)XemaSab
(60,212 posts)That's really awful.
My best to you and the families of your friends.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)NYC_SKP
(68,644 posts)You know i got your back, and so sorry about this on your life.
K and regrettable R.
Hug:
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)He was 47 fucking years old.
The reaper needs to lighten up.
annabanana
(52,791 posts)Hold the dear ones close for sure...
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Arkansas Granny
(31,531 posts)irisblue
(33,032 posts)i'm so sorry. (((hugs)))
riderinthestorm
(23,272 posts)We can all only hope to have a person like you in our lives. So, so very sorry....
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Any human should do for any of us.
Demo_Chris
(6,234 posts)cliffordu
(30,994 posts)TuxedoKat
(3,818 posts)What an awful day. So sorry your friend lost Vaska, who you also loved, and your girlfriend's best friend's husband. Bless you for trying to save him though, so sad. (((HUGS)))
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)vanlassie
(5,689 posts)So sorry.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)From my understanding she is medicated today....
vanlassie
(5,689 posts)GiveMeFreedom
(976 posts)My deepest condolences. Peace and Love, my friend. Sometimes it is hard to put into words how I feel, but it is easy to feel how words (I read) affect me. I have been doing a lot of this too BRO When your feeling better, I'll buy the first round
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Thank you so much for the support.
grantcart
(53,061 posts)cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Talk to you tomorrow
davidthegnome
(2,983 posts)I'll definitely hold my loved ones closer tonight than I usually do. I am sorry you had to suffer through that - as a fellow PTSD sufferer, I know how painful and scary it can be when we face potential triggers and very high stress situations. I hope you're alright. I wish I had some profound words of wisdom that might help make it better... some times though, all you can really do is keep on keeping on. Be safe - and know that your efforts are admired and respected. I can't do what you do, I haven't either the stomach or the courage for it. Bless you for trying to help, a great many people would not have had that courage.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)I'm ok- just weepy and I keep wondering what I could have done differently - but the answer is absolutely nothing.
I'll sleep tonight and that will help.
Peace
C
So sorry. That is F/Uped in the most horrible of ways.
tavalon
(27,985 posts)I'm so sorry for you and everyone dealing with these losses.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Really -
My grief for the others remains unabated.
840high
(17,196 posts)cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Rowdyboy
(22,057 posts)and I hope we all make it through tonight because life is way too often way, way, way too short.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Hold fast those you love.
Rowdyboy
(22,057 posts)Already looking forward to it in fact....He likes to spoon and so do I.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Snuggle well.
progressoid
(49,999 posts)cliffordu
(30,994 posts)The reaper needs to lighten up.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Rhiannon12866
(206,037 posts)Sounds like a nightmare for you, but you did all you could. Hold your loved ones close, too, including your pets.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Chester the pest is right here at my elbow.
Jucy Lucy is planted near the heater as usual.
Thanks, '
c
Rhiannon12866
(206,037 posts)You've been through quite a crisis, so be good to yourself, too.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Hyper vigilant for a couple of nights,
I'll be OK.
Thanks for reading me tonight.
Rhiannon12866
(206,037 posts)Your DU family is here for you, too, a good thing to know...
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)And, yes, you are my family.
C
CaliforniaPeggy
(149,709 posts)I really have no words for your bravery in the face of such a loss...
Please take care of yourself......
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)c
a la izquierda
(11,797 posts)I cannot imagine witnessing that. I hope the family and your friend are okay.
And I hope you're okay.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Savannah's friends, not for a long time.
pinboy3niner
(53,339 posts)I'd advise you to take care of yourself, but I think you've gotten to be very good at that through all the ups and downs and you already know what to do. When you go through the triggers and the struggles you learn some management skills to survive.
That really sucks, though, for you, his family, and for all involved. I feel for you and the hurt you're going through now. You're not alone, brother. Hang in there...
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)Knowing you're around helps immensely,
c
LiberalEsto
(22,845 posts)cliffordu
(30,994 posts)BlancheSplanchnik
(20,219 posts)I understand about the PTSD. Sounds like you know how to get yourself through it though.
And you were already hurting over Vashka.
It's just surreal...... and tragic. Your wife's friend is going to need you guys.
; (
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)We'll go back over in a day or two when their families go back to their routine -
There are several staying there for support right now.
BlancheSplanchnik
(20,219 posts)At first it's a flurry of shock and responsibilities. But once that wears off, the real pain starts.
That's when we need our real friends, over the long haul.
They're lucky to have you guys.
Arugula Latte
(50,566 posts)I'm so sorry. Too awful and too shocking.
So sorry about the sweet kitty, too. I'm glad he had a good last part of his life, though.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)He was supposed to come this week for another visit.....
Alas, it was not to be.
Dyedinthewoolliberal
(15,589 posts)at least you knew what to do. Me? Not so sure.......
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)You might have to try and save MY life one day.
I'd do the same for you.
lunatica
(53,410 posts)I saved a nun once with CPR. I know it's pretty stressful on you because of your reaction after the fact. You're a true hero. You did your best and no one can ask more of you.
cliffordu
(30,994 posts)No hero here at all. Trust me. Everyone else was standing around like, I dunno - I think the difference was that I got trained. Just trained.
I hope that nun thanks God that you were there every day.
lunatica
(53,410 posts)She was choking on a piece of bread and I did the Heimlich maneuver. The first words out of her mouth once she could breath again were to thank me.
Funny thing is I had only seen how to do it with posters in the restaurant kitchen. I was a waitress.