If someone abandons you when things are at their worst, consider it a blessing
REALLY short version, omitting MOST of the personal dirt:
Met her a year ago, we've been pretty much inseparable, she showed up at my front door yesterday and said "see ya."
I think I miss the friendship more than anything else. All of the other elements of a healthy relationship were there too but I really considered her as my partner in crime. I was in a state of shock. I think my actual words were "Are you KIDDING me?"
BUT...while I have some genuinely ugly things going on right now that will all hit around November 1st (one week to make a miracle happen), the first thing that came to mind is "Are we dealing with Newt Gingrich syndrome here? If...God forbid...I got cancer, would she have walked out on that too?" It's better to know that she's not there for me, and that she no longer wants me there for her, than it is to pretend I have something that I don't. Doesn't stop it from hurting like Hell but it's better to know than to live in a state of blissful ignorance.
I'm not perfect...I'm Italian and that means all of the good things and all of the baggage. But she spent a year on a pedestal of my own making and yesterday said "I think I''m going to come down now." And my option was to watch her step down and walk away. I'm not the type of guy to plead with someone who's writing me off for dead.
Onward and upward.
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it was probably worth it.
Best wishes moving forward, guy.
Life goes on.
...I think you and I are on the same page on this one.
In the past it would have been me "reacting"...badly. Some parts of "maturity" aren't all they're cracked up to be, but in this situation, I'm grateful for seeing things through my 2013 pair of eyes.
I'm sorry that she hurt you Miles, but always better to find that out sooner than later. May the real woman of your dreams be right around the corner. Until then, be your own best friend. 
Thanks.
Onward and upward indeed. 
"This too shall pass."
