Seriously, take a long walk, relax. You will be fine. Believe that. There is "good" everywhere, beauty in the grain of wood, or the patterns on a stone, everywhere. Suck it in. Breathe it out. You will be fine. I have every confidence in you.

I don't anything one post is whiny..

Best of luck with the new psychiatrist.

please take care of yourself.

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.You seemed to be an avid hiker. I think you should push yourself to start again -- I can't think of anything more therapeutic for you to do. Fresh air... time to examine, reflect and retain or release as necessary... and a good physical tiring.
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It's simple and easy --- and could be very helpful.
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not take anything for granted. You've been through hell and you kept going.

I am glad to see you posting again!

There is some good advice in this thread; I hope you'll take it.

Please take care of yourself......you matter to us!

To borrow a phrase from back in my day: Keep On Truckin'! Really didn't have anything to do with transportation, more about moving forward. You are stronger than you feel right now and time will prove that.

Sometimes even a text exchange with another human can lift spirits.
Someone is here all night...

Take care, my friend.

from a GP. I just found out recently that at least some of the symptoms that I attributed to depression are due to an autoimmune disease (hard to get things done when your body says "just sit there quietly"!) Also, as it turns out, my autoimmune disease is associated with depression.

I usually get depressed as the days get shorter and need to use a light therapy box.

Good luck in dealing with this and keep us posted on how you're doing!

I've seen it happen time and again. It takes faith and patience and going against what your brain tells you is fact. Hang in there, and don't think you're only welcome when you're positive.