Anyone musically inclined? Can you explain what the hell Chris Martin is talking about?

He explains his reason for his breakup with Gwyneth Paltrow, and I'm more confused than ever. I figure it has something to do with being musically inclined. I'm tone deaf so I don't understand that language.

Chris Martin Opens Up About “Mess” Behind Gwyneth Paltrow Split

He says of the Paltrow breakup, “I wouldn’t use the word breakdown, this was more a realization about trying to grow up.”

“If you can’t open yourself up, you can’t appreciate the wonder inside,” adds Martin. “You can be with someone wonderful, but because of your issues you can’t let that be celebrated in the right way.”

The performer reveals, “What changed for me was — I don’t want to go through life being scared of it, being scared of love, being scared of rejection, being scared of failure.”

“Ever since our band came out, we have been a very polarizing group because we do a certain thing very well,” continues Martin. “About two years ago I was a mess really because I can’t enjoy the thing that we are good at and I can’t enjoy the great things around me because I’m burdened by this — I’ve got to not blame anyone else and make some changes.”

http://www.gossipcop.com/chris-martin-zane-lowe-video-gwyneth-paltrow-split-breakup-one-direction/