some of my own ... I will only warn that the process of getting to hammered is really painful to both mind and body ... I know that your personal mental gymnastics is difficult at this time ... and I want to commend you for your decision to head to a supportive meeting ... you should be thanking yourself for your reflective thoughts instead of acting on your impulsive behaviors .... I am personally thanking you for your constructive positive behaviors and I want to encourage you to continue to remind yourself of the destructive consequences of hammering yourself ....

You never have to drink again, even if you want to.

and when my crazybrain starts talking i ask 'what have i stopped doing that i was doing when it worked?'

but you've already figured that. grab a newcomer at the meeting and take them to coffee.

That regardless of anything else your program is working, good for you to do what you need to do not what you want to do..

Might take a hard look at the process that got you to the point of thinking about going out.

He begged off the party and went to meeting. That's some solid work right there!

It was very definitely the right move and deserves credit for recognizing what was happening and taking the necessary steps.. As time moves on needs to keep on top of the problem that caused the thinking also..

There are times I wish there were a magic fairy who could take this all away. But then I think of the person I might be and I prefer this person, even with the difficulties.

and boy, those fantasies are like ripping off a scab.

Huge congrats on your choice to head to a meeting. I know they say it's one day at a time, but really, it's one choice at a time and this time you made the right choice. I wish I could promise it gets better and in some ways, I think you know it does, but still these things can knock the wind out, can't they?

For the words of support and encouragement.

Got to the meeting, and heard what I needed to hear. Still dealing with the force and fallout of the averted drinking plan. As suggested, I need to get back to the program a bit, and work it more closely. Get a sponsor again, and do some 11th step work to give back. Forgetting where I came from and can go again is simply not an option for me.

Never met one, though.

"One day at a time" never stops.

If I forget it, it's down the rabbit hole for me.

I learn this the hard way, again and again.

Me and my jerkbrain.

affirmatively,
Bright

But in my 28 years of fighting the addictions, I have found that we all are just one drink away from going back to where we were, and for me that just isn't an option I want to take. I have gotten to where I am today by doing exactly what you said, taking it one day at a time. There have been many times when something has come up that makes me think just "one drink" would fix my problems, but then I remember that I could never have just one drink, and I simply need to make it through the day and then on to the next. Things do get better, but we have to keep make the right choices.