Addiction & Recovery
Related: About this forumToday I am 30 days sober
Heading to my PHP (partial hospitalization program) in a short while. My wife will be reading her data letter to me, pretty much saying how my drinking impacted her. Its a requirement of the program, and Im a bit nervous. Im not going to let that spoil my celebration
In the past 30 days I was at a funeral luncheon where booze was all around me. I was at a family reunion where booze was readily accessible. Guests in my house have had their cocktails and I drank my water, or Arnie Palmers. It felt a bit weird but I was proud of myself. I did not envy, and I did not drink.
Today I am thirty days sober.
snowybirdie
(5,229 posts)Keeping on!
At a time
Duncanpup
(12,861 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)ms liberty
(8,580 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)multigraincracker
(32,690 posts)No thanks, Im allergic to alcohol. I break out in hand cuffs. Cuts em right off.
riverbendviewgal
(4,253 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)underpants
(182,830 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)bucolic_frolic
(43,190 posts)you're on the right path!
cate94
(2,811 posts)Lonestarblue
(10,013 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)no_hypocrisy
(46,130 posts)Keep it going!
Proud of your dedication and determination.
cate94
(2,811 posts)Paladin
(28,265 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)BigOleDummy
(2,270 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)Hope22
(1,842 posts)Remember to breathe as you listen. It will be hard but not the hardest thing youve ever done. Love to you and yours. This is a new day!🙏🏼💗💗
NoMoreRepugs
(9,435 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)I think I can!
2naSalit
(86,650 posts)I hope you can do it again! I think you will, the first 30 can be tough.
cate94
(2,811 posts)One day at a time!
SharonAnn
(13,776 posts)Advice was that wherever i was going to be in a group where there was drinking going on, I should have an exit plan in case I felt needed to leave in order to stay sober. Have my own car if I was going somewhere for an event. Have a plan for how I could excuse myself from something in my own house. "I don't feel well" and go to my room or sneak out and go somewhere else.
It worked. Sometimes, just knowing I had an exit plan eased the temptation to drink.
cate94
(2,811 posts)ChazInAz
(2,570 posts)That's a long time!
Just twenty-four hours at a time, each taken singly.
A word of advice from an Olephart who's been there: pay attention when your wife takes your inventory. You have to know that stuff at bone level. You can do this.
I was grateful both for the things she said and my groups reaction.
AmBlue
(3,111 posts)I likely know a lot of things your wife will say as I have walked in her shoes, with my ex-husband. If he had done what you are doing, we might still be married for more than 40 years by now.
I'm proud of you and happy for your future. Keep up the good work!
Tetrachloride
(7,849 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)Niagara
(7,627 posts)You can do this, one day at a time.
roxybear
(19 posts)I know what you're going through. I quit 40 years ago and haven't had a drink since. However, it wasn't as easy as I might make it sound. It took me about 5 years to finally quit for good. During that time I was sober most of the time but there were times I had to try drinking again; it never turned out well. I'd drink alcoholically for a week to a month and then had to quit again because I made a fool of myself and/or was on the verge of losing my job. I put my wife and family through hell and I'm not proud of it. I finally realized that I can't drink safely and quit for good. I hope you're smarter than me and succeed on your first try. I was a slow learner. Even if things do get bad again don't get discouraged or give up hope. Even if the world looks like a dark place, you can make a good life for yourself and your family. I'd also ask your wife not to give up on you. My wife stood by me even though I screwed up and wasn't a nice person to live with; all I can say is that she's a saint. I, and I suspect she, would say the pain was worth it to come out at a good place in the end.
cate94
(2,811 posts)I dont think my wife would either if I slipped. I look at the pain the people in my group have suffered as a result of their relapses, and I hope to never go there.
twodogsbarking
(9,759 posts)Let it slide. They care but can't fully understand.
cate94
(2,811 posts)The data letter went well. At least as well as I could expect.
Chicagogrl1
(419 posts)Thats a great accomplishment. Keep it going!
cate94
(2,811 posts)geardaddy
(24,931 posts)That is great!
cate94
(2,811 posts)AllaN01Bear
(18,261 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)WmChris
(149 posts)I'm always glad to welcome another travler trudging the road to happy destiny. Stick around and the promises on pages 83-84 of the Big Book of AA will materialize, as they have manifested in my life.
cate94
(2,811 posts)My sponsor said wed read that together on Saturday. Great minds
niyad
(113,351 posts)c-rational
(2,594 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)fierywoman
(7,686 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)rzemanfl
(29,565 posts)They keep adding up. Congratulations.
Thanks!
flying_wahini
(6,606 posts)Its hard work but gets easier as you go.
cate94
(2,811 posts)pazzyanne
(6,556 posts)You should be proud of you! Keep on keeping on! We are all in your corner rooting for you!
LoisB
(7,206 posts)Chainfire
(17,550 posts)Been there, done that, and have the tee shirt. It gets easier with time and there will come a point in your life when you no longer think about it. Your life is going to take a turn for the better.
cate94
(2,811 posts)Im looking forward to the time I no longer think about it.
ramen
(790 posts)riverbendviewgal
(4,253 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)onecaliberal
(32,864 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)catrose
(5,068 posts)And instead of walking away, your wife is participating in both your recovery and the familys recovery. Good sign.
I feel very fortunate!
SpankMe
(2,957 posts)Keep it up. It can - and will - be done. (Sobriety, that is.)
My best wishes to your for continuing recovery!
Thank you!
Bristlecone
(10,129 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)vlyons
(10,252 posts)You are well on you way to that day, when the little voice in your head stops saying, "I need a drink." No, you don't NEED it. I used to drink way too much, and had about a dozen grand mal seizures. When I stopped drinking, the seizures also stopped. I can now drink a beer or glass of wine occasionally, as in 1 per 3 or 4 months.
I am amazed at how much alcohol permeates our culture. Watching TV or movies, count how many times someone comes in the door and heads straight for the bar for liquor. Like 3 or 4 fingers of liquor. Eventually alcohol will not interest you at all. You are perfectly capable of dealing with all the obstacles, disappointments, and upsets that come your way.
cate94
(2,811 posts)I doubt I could do just 1 every now and then.
You are so right about our culture. Booze is everywhere. Its just no longer in my glass.
soldierant
(6,890 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)Deep State Witch
(10,429 posts)Keep going - one day at a time!
cate94
(2,811 posts)BlueIdaho
(13,582 posts)There are going to be a whole string of sober firsts First time in a restaurant sober, first time you get sick sober, first time you go on vacation sober
after a while all those things will begin to feel normal. As my friends say - Easy Does It But Do It.
Find yourself a community of like minded individuals - theres plenty of folks that can help you. You dont and probably cant do this on your own. Remember that you need to hear from the people you love and that love you. Alcoholism affects the whole family.
Finally
No Matter What, Just Dont Drink.
We are rooting for you! ❤️
cate94
(2,811 posts)I agree wholeheartedly.
BlueIdaho
(13,582 posts)Waiting out there for you. One day youll realize there are plenty of folks that just dont drink - not because they are alcoholics but because the just dont want to. Then you may look around and realize youve been stuck in some kind of self imposed prison.
With any luck youll discover a whole world of opportunities, new experiences, and serenity.
One day at a time.
cate94
(2,811 posts)I hope youre right!
zanana1
(6,122 posts)Thirty days is quite an accomplishment. (I know how humbling that "data letter" can be). It's also freeing in a way, too. Walk tall and carry on!
Im pretty proud of myself. And the data letter was very loving. It had some hard truths, but the message was so supportive.
moniss
(4,263 posts)rurallib
(62,423 posts)You don't want to lose that feeling.
I quit somewhere @ 30 years ago and never missed it a bit.
cate94
(2,811 posts)ratchiweenie
(7,754 posts)doing yourself a HUGE favor. When people try to press alcohol on my husband and me, we just tell them "We drank our share" and we're tired of it now.
cate94
(2,811 posts)Im lucky to be around very supportive people. Hopefully no one will push the issue.
RainCaster
(10,884 posts)You have done the toughest part already. I general, each day will be easier than the day before, though the changes are subtle.
cate94
(2,811 posts)I hope youre right!
joanbarnes
(1,722 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)GeoWilliam750
(2,522 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)Permanut
(5,613 posts)A grateful member of AA.
There's no way to sugar coat this challenge. It was extremely difficult, and took four tries to get here.
There is also no way to describe how much better my life is.
Congratulations on a great achievement!
No sugar coating needed. I see the number of relapses in my group. Trying to keep in mind, I dont want to go through this again. It wont be any easier if there is a next time.
Mr.Bill
(24,303 posts)I quit smoking 20 years ago, and 32 years ago I quit all drugs except marijuana, which I rarely use anymore, cigarettes and alcohol. I've been toying with the idea of quitting drinking. I recently quit for a week, and I had no physical symptoms at all, so maybe I can do this. It inspires me when I see others do it.
I had quit everything but alcohol. I had to go to detox for alcohol. If you can do it on your own that is wonderful!
byronius
(7,395 posts)orangecrush
(19,572 posts)Goddessartist
(1,801 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)LetMyPeopleVote
(145,321 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)COL Mustard
(5,906 posts)And best wishes for many more days!
cate94
(2,811 posts)MacKasey
(987 posts)Trueblue Texan
(2,430 posts)Stay true to your convictions. You deserve it.
cate94
(2,811 posts)Will do.
LearnedHand
(3,389 posts)Trying and failing to imagine what it would be like to not drink for 20 years. One secret, I found out, was to not quit for 20 years, only for the next 5 minutes. Keep quitting every 5 minutes, and string those drink-free minutes together. That necklace gets long pretty fast. It gets easier. I am so proud of you.
ailsagirl
(22,897 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)And thank you!
keithbvadu2
(36,829 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)ailsagirl
(22,897 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)ailsagirl
(22,897 posts)😁😻😎😃😄😆
crickets
(25,981 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)sprinkleeninow
(20,252 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)diva77
(7,643 posts)1/2 pineapple juice + 1/2 soda water
1/2 cranberry juice + 1/2 soda water
DFW
(54,410 posts)I was spared by an unusual genetic oddity. Otherwise, who knows if I might have landed in the same boat?
Youre lucky.
DFW
(54,410 posts)I gag when I taste a wide variety of things. One is avocados. Another is alcohol. Whether beer, wine, hard stuff, or even ice cream with a few drops of Grand Marnier, I get repulsed. It was that way when I was five, and it's still that way now.The closest I can come is cod in garlic and white wine sauce, and only if the alcohol has completely burned off. But the chance of me downing even an eyedropper of an alcoholic beverage without getting ill is exactly zero. Neither my siblings nor my children have this, so I must be some kind of genetic freak. But since I never had a craving for it, I never missed it, either.
cate94
(2,811 posts)I was born with a predisposed to alcoholism. I ignored the warnings. Not terribly smart, so here I am.
Rhiannon12866
(205,540 posts)I know very well how tough it is in the beginning, wishing you a successful journey - One Day at a Time.
cate94
(2,811 posts)The_REAL_Ecumenist
(723 posts)cate94
(2,811 posts)Maraya1969
(22,484 posts)I wish for you all the very best in your sober journey.
cate94
(2,811 posts)mgardener
(1,817 posts)Congratulations.
cate94
(2,811 posts)lillypaddle
(9,581 posts)Good on you, cate94. It's tough, but I know you are going to keep on. Takes all kinds of courage and strength, and it sounds like you have all of that.