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cate94

(2,811 posts)
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 08:05 AM Sep 2023

Today I am 30 days sober

Heading to my PHP (partial hospitalization program) in a short while. My wife will be reading her data letter to me, pretty much saying how my drinking impacted her. It’s a requirement of the program, and I’m a bit nervous. I’m not going to let that spoil my celebration

In the past 30 days I was at a funeral luncheon where booze was all around me. I was at a family reunion where booze was readily accessible. Guests in my house have had their cocktails and I drank my water, or Arnie Palmer’s. It felt a bit weird but I was proud of myself. I did not envy, and I did not drink.

Today I am thirty days sober.

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Today I am 30 days sober (Original Post) cate94 Sep 2023 OP
Keep on snowybirdie Sep 2023 #1
One day cate94 Sep 2023 #2
Hugs congratulations Duncanpup Sep 2023 #3
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #51
Good work, keep it up! ms liberty Sep 2023 #4
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #52
Feel free to use my excuse... multigraincracker Sep 2023 #5
That is good. riverbendviewgal Sep 2023 #35
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #53
Congratulations underpants Sep 2023 #6
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #54
Keep putting one foot in front of another bucolic_frolic Sep 2023 #7
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #55
Congratulations! You're doing great! Lonestarblue Sep 2023 #8
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #56
And one day stronger than yesterday!! no_hypocrisy Sep 2023 #9
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #57
Outstanding. Keep up the good, important work. (nt) Paladin Sep 2023 #10
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #58
Excellent BigOleDummy Sep 2023 #11
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #59
My best to you. Hope22 Sep 2023 #12
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #60
Look deep inside - You know you can do it. NoMoreRepugs Sep 2023 #13
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #61
Well done... 2naSalit Sep 2023 #14
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #62
I've succeeded for 30 years. Best advice to me early on was "Have an exit plan". SharonAnn Sep 2023 #15
Good advice! cate94 Sep 2023 #63
Thirty days! ChazInAz Sep 2023 #16
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #64
Congratulations AmBlue Sep 2023 #17
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #65
outstanding really Tetrachloride Sep 2023 #18
I am proud of myself! cate94 Sep 2023 #66
Congratulations, cate94! Niagara Sep 2023 #19
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #67
Congratulations and don't give up. roxybear Sep 2023 #20
I won't give up! cate94 Sep 2023 #68
Congrats. Guard your mental health. You have people to help. They may not say the right thing. twodogsbarking Sep 2023 #21
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #69
Congrats!! Chicagogrl1 Sep 2023 #22
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #70
Congratuulations! geardaddy Sep 2023 #23
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #71
bravo AllaN01Bear Sep 2023 #24
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #72
Congratulations WmChris Sep 2023 #25
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #73
Congratulations. niyad Sep 2023 #26
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #74
Congratulations. c-rational Sep 2023 #27
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #75
Bravo! fierywoman Sep 2023 #28
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #76
13,911 here. rzemanfl Sep 2023 #29
Wow! cate94 Sep 2023 #77
Congratulations! flying_wahini Sep 2023 #30
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #78
Congratulations! pazzyanne Sep 2023 #31
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #79
Congratulations! I am very happy for you. LoisB Sep 2023 #32
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #102
I will add my congratulations! Chainfire Sep 2023 #33
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #103
Nice work. That is a very hard period for most people, congratulations. nt ramen Sep 2023 #34
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #104
That is awesome 👌 riverbendviewgal Sep 2023 #36
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #105
Outstanding! Proud of you. onecaliberal Sep 2023 #37
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #106
Congratulations! catrose Sep 2023 #38
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #107
A tough, tough road, I know SpankMe Sep 2023 #39
It is cate94 Sep 2023 #108
Congrats. 30 days is a long time. Keep it up! Bristlecone Sep 2023 #40
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #109
Super congratulations! vlyons Sep 2023 #41
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #110
Congranulations, sugar. soldierant Sep 2023 #42
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #111
One Day At A Time Deep State Witch Sep 2023 #43
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #112
Good Start! BlueIdaho Sep 2023 #44
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #113
There is a whole wonderful sober world BlueIdaho Sep 2023 #146
Sounds lovely cate94 Sep 2023 #147
That's outstanding! zanana1 Sep 2023 #45
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #114
Congratulations and best wishes going forward!! moniss Sep 2023 #46
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #115
Isn't it great to be in charge of your life? rurallib Sep 2023 #47
Yes it is! cate94 Sep 2023 #116
Good on you. It can be difficult being around people drinking when you are staying sober but you are ratchiweenie Sep 2023 #48
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #118
Good for you! RainCaster Sep 2023 #49
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #119
carry on joanbarnes Sep 2023 #50
Will do. cate94 Sep 2023 #120
Now sir, one more each day GeoWilliam750 Sep 2023 #80
One day at a time. cate94 Sep 2023 #121
29 years sober here.. Permanut Sep 2023 #81
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #122
Congratulations! Mr.Bill Sep 2023 #82
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #123
Congrats. byronius Sep 2023 #83
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #124
One day at a time orangecrush Sep 2023 #84
Yup! cate94 Sep 2023 #125
Hooray! So happy for you! Keep going....one day at a time my fellow recoverer. Goddessartist Sep 2023 #85
Thank you so much! cate94 Sep 2023 #126
Congratulations LetMyPeopleVote Sep 2023 #86
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #127
Congratulations!!! COL Mustard Sep 2023 #87
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #129
Doing one day at a time! Good job ! MacKasey Sep 2023 #88
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #130
Congratulations. Trueblue Texan Sep 2023 #89
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #131
20 years ago I sat where you are now LearnedHand Sep 2023 #90
I should congratulate you, too ailsagirl Sep 2023 #93
Congratulations! cate94 Sep 2023 #132
Congrats! Keep counting. keithbvadu2 Sep 2023 #91
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #133
Congratulations!! ailsagirl Sep 2023 #92
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #134
So happy for you!!! ailsagirl Sep 2023 #149
Congratulations and good for you, cate94! crickets Sep 2023 #94
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #135
You are strong. You are determined. You are loved. 🩷 sprinkleeninow Sep 2023 #95
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #136
Congrats to you!!! A couple of my fave non-alc. beverages are diva77 Sep 2023 #96
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #137
The longest journey starts with a single step. DFW Sep 2023 #97
Very true cate94 Sep 2023 #138
I was born with a strong aversion DFW Sep 2023 #145
That sounds pretty lucky cate94 Sep 2023 #148
Congratulations, you deserve to feel very proud of yourself. Rhiannon12866 Sep 2023 #98
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #139
BRAVO & CONGRATULATIONS!! Keep up the good work! The_REAL_Ecumenist Sep 2023 #99
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #140
Congratulations! And keep up the good work. Maraya1969 Sep 2023 #100
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #141
Yes! dvan Sep 2023 #101
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #143
What an accomplishment mgardener Sep 2023 #117
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #142
Woohoo!!! lillypaddle Sep 2023 #128
Thank you! cate94 Sep 2023 #144
Good on ya! bif Sep 2023 #150
Thanks! cate94 Sep 2023 #151

multigraincracker

(32,690 posts)
5. Feel free to use my excuse...
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 08:28 AM
Sep 2023

No thanks, I’m allergic to alcohol. I break out in hand cuffs. Cuts em right off.

Hope22

(1,842 posts)
12. My best to you.
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 08:42 AM
Sep 2023

Remember to breathe as you listen. It will be hard but not the hardest thing you’ve ever done. Love to you and yours. This is a new day!🙏🏼💗💗

SharonAnn

(13,776 posts)
15. I've succeeded for 30 years. Best advice to me early on was "Have an exit plan".
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 08:50 AM
Sep 2023

Advice was that wherever i was going to be in a group where there was drinking going on, I should have an exit plan in case I felt needed to leave in order to stay sober. Have my own car if I was going somewhere for an event. Have a plan for how I could excuse myself from something in my own house. "I don't feel well" and go to my room or sneak out and go somewhere else.

It worked. Sometimes, just knowing I had an exit plan eased the temptation to drink.

ChazInAz

(2,570 posts)
16. Thirty days!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 08:53 AM
Sep 2023

That's a long time!
Just twenty-four hours at a time, each taken singly.
A word of advice from an Olephart who's been there: pay attention when your wife takes your inventory. You have to know that stuff at bone level. You can do this.

AmBlue

(3,111 posts)
17. Congratulations
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 09:01 AM
Sep 2023

I likely know a lot of things your wife will say as I have walked in her shoes, with my ex-husband. If he had done what you are doing, we might still be married for more than 40 years by now.

I'm proud of you and happy for your future. Keep up the good work!

roxybear

(19 posts)
20. Congratulations and don't give up.
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 09:07 AM
Sep 2023

I know what you're going through. I quit 40 years ago and haven't had a drink since. However, it wasn't as easy as I might make it sound. It took me about 5 years to finally quit for good. During that time I was sober most of the time but there were times I had to try drinking again; it never turned out well. I'd drink alcoholically for a week to a month and then had to quit again because I made a fool of myself and/or was on the verge of losing my job. I put my wife and family through hell and I'm not proud of it. I finally realized that I can't drink safely and quit for good. I hope you're smarter than me and succeed on your first try. I was a slow learner. Even if things do get bad again don't get discouraged or give up hope. Even if the world looks like a dark place, you can make a good life for yourself and your family. I'd also ask your wife not to give up on you. My wife stood by me even though I screwed up and wasn't a nice person to live with; all I can say is that she's a saint. I, and I suspect she, would say the pain was worth it to come out at a good place in the end.

cate94

(2,811 posts)
68. I won't give up!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 04:59 PM
Sep 2023

I don’t think my wife would either if I slipped. I look at the pain the people in my group have suffered as a result of their relapses, and I hope to never go there.

twodogsbarking

(9,759 posts)
21. Congrats. Guard your mental health. You have people to help. They may not say the right thing.
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 09:11 AM
Sep 2023

Let it slide. They care but can't fully understand.

WmChris

(149 posts)
25. Congratulations
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 09:40 AM
Sep 2023

I'm always glad to welcome another travler trudging the road to happy destiny. Stick around and the promises on pages 83-84 of the Big Book of AA will materialize, as they have manifested in my life.

pazzyanne

(6,556 posts)
31. Congratulations!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:01 AM
Sep 2023

You should be proud of you! Keep on keeping on! We are all in your corner rooting for you!

Chainfire

(17,550 posts)
33. I will add my congratulations!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:08 AM
Sep 2023

Been there, done that, and have the tee shirt. It gets easier with time and there will come a point in your life when you no longer think about it. Your life is going to take a turn for the better.

catrose

(5,068 posts)
38. Congratulations!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:19 AM
Sep 2023

And instead of walking away, your wife is participating in both your recovery and the family’s recovery. Good sign.

SpankMe

(2,957 posts)
39. A tough, tough road, I know
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:31 AM
Sep 2023

Keep it up. It can - and will - be done. (Sobriety, that is.)

My best wishes to your for continuing recovery!

vlyons

(10,252 posts)
41. Super congratulations!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:38 AM
Sep 2023

You are well on you way to that day, when the little voice in your head stops saying, "I need a drink." No, you don't NEED it. I used to drink way too much, and had about a dozen grand mal seizures. When I stopped drinking, the seizures also stopped. I can now drink a beer or glass of wine occasionally, as in 1 per 3 or 4 months.

I am amazed at how much alcohol permeates our culture. Watching TV or movies, count how many times someone comes in the door and heads straight for the bar for liquor. Like 3 or 4 fingers of liquor. Eventually alcohol will not interest you at all. You are perfectly capable of dealing with all the obstacles, disappointments, and upsets that come your way.

cate94

(2,811 posts)
110. Thank you!
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 07:29 AM
Sep 2023

I doubt I could do just 1 every now and then.

You are so right about our culture. Booze is everywhere. It’s just no longer in my glass.

BlueIdaho

(13,582 posts)
44. Good Start!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:47 AM
Sep 2023

There are going to be a whole string of “sober firsts” First time in a restaurant sober, first time you get sick sober, first time you go on vacation sober… after a while all those things will begin to feel normal. As my friends say - “Easy Does It But Do It.”

Find yourself a community of like minded individuals - there’s plenty of folks that can help you. You don’t and probably can’t do this on your own. Remember that you need to hear from the people you love and that love you. Alcoholism affects the whole family.

Finally… No Matter What, Just Don’t Drink.

We are rooting for you! ❤️

BlueIdaho

(13,582 posts)
146. There is a whole wonderful sober world
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 10:02 AM
Sep 2023

Waiting out there for you. One day you’ll realize there are plenty of folks that just don’t drink - not because they are alcoholics but because the just don’t want to. Then you may look around and realize you’ve been stuck in some kind of self imposed prison.

With any luck you’ll discover a whole world of opportunities, new experiences, and serenity.

One day at a time.

zanana1

(6,122 posts)
45. That's outstanding!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:49 AM
Sep 2023

Thirty days is quite an accomplishment. (I know how humbling that "data letter" can be). It's also freeing in a way, too. Walk tall and carry on!

cate94

(2,811 posts)
114. Thanks!
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 07:37 AM
Sep 2023

I’m pretty proud of myself. And the data letter was very loving. It had some hard truths, but the message was so supportive.

rurallib

(62,423 posts)
47. Isn't it great to be in charge of your life?
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 10:59 AM
Sep 2023

You don't want to lose that feeling.

I quit somewhere @ 30 years ago and never missed it a bit.

ratchiweenie

(7,754 posts)
48. Good on you. It can be difficult being around people drinking when you are staying sober but you are
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 11:13 AM
Sep 2023

doing yourself a HUGE favor. When people try to press alcohol on my husband and me, we just tell them "We drank our share" and we're tired of it now.

RainCaster

(10,884 posts)
49. Good for you!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 11:56 AM
Sep 2023

You have done the toughest part already. I general, each day will be easier than the day before, though the changes are subtle.

Permanut

(5,613 posts)
81. 29 years sober here..
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 05:35 PM
Sep 2023

A grateful member of AA.

There's no way to sugar coat this challenge. It was extremely difficult, and took four tries to get here.

There is also no way to describe how much better my life is.

Congratulations on a great achievement!

cate94

(2,811 posts)
122. Thanks!
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 07:48 AM
Sep 2023

No sugar coating needed. I see the number of relapses in my group. Trying to keep in mind, I don’t want to go through this again. It won’t be any easier if there is a next time.

Mr.Bill

(24,303 posts)
82. Congratulations!
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 07:38 PM
Sep 2023

I quit smoking 20 years ago, and 32 years ago I quit all drugs except marijuana, which I rarely use anymore, cigarettes and alcohol. I've been toying with the idea of quitting drinking. I recently quit for a week, and I had no physical symptoms at all, so maybe I can do this. It inspires me when I see others do it.

cate94

(2,811 posts)
123. Thanks!
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 07:51 AM
Sep 2023

I had quit everything but alcohol. I had to go to detox for alcohol. If you can do it on your own that is wonderful!

LearnedHand

(3,389 posts)
90. 20 years ago I sat where you are now
Wed Sep 13, 2023, 09:26 PM
Sep 2023

Trying and failing to imagine what it would be like to not drink for 20 years. One secret, I found out, was to not quit for 20 years, only for the next 5 minutes. Keep quitting every 5 minutes, and string those drink-free minutes together. That necklace gets long pretty fast. It gets easier. I am so proud of you.

diva77

(7,643 posts)
96. Congrats to you!!! A couple of my fave non-alc. beverages are
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 01:11 AM
Sep 2023

1/2 pineapple juice + 1/2 soda water

1/2 cranberry juice + 1/2 soda water

DFW

(54,410 posts)
97. The longest journey starts with a single step.
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 01:31 AM
Sep 2023

I was spared by an unusual genetic oddity. Otherwise, who knows if I might have landed in the same boat?

DFW

(54,410 posts)
145. I was born with a strong aversion
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 09:33 AM
Sep 2023

I gag when I taste a wide variety of things. One is avocados. Another is alcohol. Whether beer, wine, hard stuff, or even ice cream with a few drops of Grand Marnier, I get repulsed. It was that way when I was five, and it's still that way now.The closest I can come is cod in garlic and white wine sauce, and only if the alcohol has completely burned off. But the chance of me downing even an eyedropper of an alcoholic beverage without getting ill is exactly zero. Neither my siblings nor my children have this, so I must be some kind of genetic freak. But since I never had a craving for it, I never missed it, either.

cate94

(2,811 posts)
148. That sounds pretty lucky
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 05:00 PM
Sep 2023

I was born with a predisposed to alcoholism. I ignored the warnings. Not terribly smart, so here I am.

Rhiannon12866

(205,540 posts)
98. Congratulations, you deserve to feel very proud of yourself.
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 03:51 AM
Sep 2023

I know very well how tough it is in the beginning, wishing you a successful journey - One Day at a Time.



Maraya1969

(22,484 posts)
100. Congratulations! And keep up the good work.
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 06:17 AM
Sep 2023

I wish for you all the very best in your sober journey.

lillypaddle

(9,581 posts)
128. Woohoo!!!
Thu Sep 14, 2023, 07:54 AM
Sep 2023

Good on you, cate94. It's tough, but I know you are going to keep on. Takes all kinds of courage and strength, and it sounds like you have all of that.

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