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Neoma

(10,039 posts)
Sat Jul 21, 2012, 10:21 PM Jul 2012

Big deal for me.

I've been avoiding it for years, but I finally have my drivers permit. (On my first try!)

I was stuck in this mind set that I didn't want anything to change in my life, even though it was dragging me down and doing horrible things to me. Being stuck in the same routine can do that to a person.

Now... I don't know. I'm hoping this isn't one of those goals that you think, "well now I'll be totally normal!" when it doesn't really fulfill your life like that when it happens. I've been doing great, considering what my condition was a few years ago.

What I hate about doing better, is what I'm sure everyone here hates: "Am I better because of my pills, or because my attitude towards things has changed?" I think it's both, but it doesn't make that thought any easier.

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Big deal for me. (Original Post) Neoma Jul 2012 OP
That question doesn't bother me, Neoma Tobin S. Jul 2012 #1
Congrats! Betsy Ross Jul 2012 #2
what we know is always comforting, even if it is not good. mopinko Jul 2012 #3
I drive with my husband. Neoma Jul 2012 #4
you go. mopinko Jul 2012 #5
the meds smooth out my moods fizzgig Jul 2012 #6
Congratulations! My advice: Enjoy driving! backscatter712 Jul 2012 #7

Tobin S.

(10,418 posts)
1. That question doesn't bother me, Neoma
Sun Jul 22, 2012, 12:17 AM
Jul 2012

It's just as real either way. I'll probably be taking my pills for the rest of my life. I don't even think about it.

Congrats on your new found freedom! I've heard it said that cars are symbols of sexuality and freedom. I was going to post a youtube link to Prince's "Little Red Corvette", a song that embodies the sexuality and freedom of a car, but that butthead has blocked his songs from being on youtube. I guess he's not rich enough. So we'll have to go with "Red Barchetta" by Rush.

Betsy Ross

(3,147 posts)
2. Congrats!
Sun Jul 22, 2012, 01:59 AM
Jul 2012

Enjoy doing great. Do what works for you.

Pills don't make me better; they allow me to choose how to be.

mopinko

(70,121 posts)
3. what we know is always comforting, even if it is not good.
Mon Jul 23, 2012, 11:05 AM
Jul 2012

it is what we know. big part of what makes change hard.
good luck with driving. will DH be teaching you? will that work?
my baby is trying to learn to drive, but having a very hard time. she is so prone to freaking out. we are sending her to a driving school, hoping that someone that she doesn't know well will not be as uncomfortable as mom and dad.
it can be hard. but i think you will be really glad when you get that freedom.
good luck

Neoma

(10,039 posts)
4. I drive with my husband.
Mon Jul 23, 2012, 11:42 AM
Jul 2012

Driving is no problem for me. I just need practice backing up (which way do I turn the wheel again?) and parking. The fastest I've gone is 55 mph. (48 more hours to drive!)

Driving by itself didn't really mess me up. It was the knowledge test itself. I'm not used to tests, I've been self-taught for a majority of my life.

That, and I wasn't keen on getting more responsibilities I guess. But that has changed somehow. Simply put, I got bored. I want to go to college soon and I feel strong enough to do it.

What's weird is that I don't feel like I'm "managing" my bipolar. It feels gone. No hypomania or depression for months. Maybe a few nightmares and a few mood swings, but otherwise...I don't know. It's freaky, I feel like myself.

fizzgig

(24,146 posts)
6. the meds smooth out my moods
Tue Jul 24, 2012, 01:04 PM
Jul 2012

which allows me to better react to triggers. they allow me to be me without the committee shouting in the back of my head all the time. when the committee starts yammering, it's easier to tell them to shut it.

i view meds as a tool to help get me where i need to go and i know it's a bit of them and a bit of me.

good job on getting your permit on the first try, i failed my first written test for my permit all those years ago.

i'm glad you're doing so well

backscatter712

(26,355 posts)
7. Congratulations! My advice: Enjoy driving!
Wed Jul 25, 2012, 06:36 PM
Jul 2012

A lot of people drive for fun. By all means, be safe, but also enjoy yourself.

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