when you feel up to it. There is no reason you should feel guilty. Taking care of your mental health is paramount. Besides, you will learn a lot from a trip like that and, if you teach, contribute to others. When I was in my early twenties, I went to Europe for a year and a half. I worked in London, first at a cafe and then as a bike messenger. I traveled around Europe. Those were invaluable experiences. I bet it would be for you as well.

In the meantime, get on a waiting list for a new shrink. That one sounds bad.

The one I'm seeing is linked with the school I was with and now that I'm not a registered student he can't see me more than a few more times.

Sorry not more responsive to your question, but you gotta do something else re: basic problems.

1. re vacation- There's a lot to see in North America - especially the Northwest, not too far from your home. Sort of combining your idea with your father's - have you considered a volunteer "vacation" in Canada or the US? I'm thinking of something like the American Indian schools on reservations, that are often very needy and can use help due to limited funds. I don't know anything about the indigenous peoples located in western Canada, but know that there are reservations in North Dakota, Montana, etc. Your skills with computers would be something that could be taught. You would never feel guilt about giving of yourself and your time to others - it is a most worthy thing to do.
If that sounds like too much to bite off, (I was thinking of it in terms of "vacation" - going away from home) there are likely good volunteer opportunities in your home area.

2. Re counseling, etc. A good "life coach", preferably a psychologist or clinical social worker, could be useful. He could help you set goals and suggest ways to achieve them, working with him on a regular basis. When I was preparing for knee replacement surgery, I availed myself of the services of a retired psychologist I had met, and, later, when my spouse was ill, the same one was very helpful in helping me move forward in a healthy way. I think most life coaches, by definition, are more empathetic as a group than someone like the psychiatrist you referred to above.

Just some ideas to throw out, and for you to improve upon, if they're at all pertinent to your situation.

Regarding the life coach thanks for the idea. I've never really heard of a life coach I'll have to research that. However I am going to look into getting a therapist / psychologist to try to do CBT therapy with me and not just a psychiatrist. I'm also going to change psychiatrists as well, I'll ask my family DR what options I have on that front.

The best deal of volunteering somewhere is an interesting one that I'll have to research. Maybe there is some place up north I can do something like that. Always wanted to go to the Yukon for example.

but I think getting to a longer lasting stability will help you identify things that attract your interest, and can be approached in a way that builds in some support.

I can't say it's a good or bad idea, only that it should be approached with an awareness of your strengths and of your weaknesses.